+Blabbling+ ♥

Today I... 
Went to church.
Laughed with close friends.
Lip synced worship music to the best of my capabilities.
Realized I don't really know much about anything other than what God did on the cross.
Realized that I want that to desperately be enough.
REALIZED I cannot live in forgiveness without His Holy Spirit.
REALIZED His grace exceeds all boundaries and expectations.
Wanted desperately to fly away.
Looked into the eyes of a man who is attracted to me and felt uncomfortable.
NOT with the fact that He was attracted but that it was ME He was attracted to.
Wanted desperately to ask Him "why?" but instead pretended I didn't notice.
Saw myself in the mirror with eyeliner and mascara on and thought "NOT TOO BAD"
Ate enough and not TOO MUCH.
Logged all my food in my food journal! Two days in a row yay!
Almost clapped when I heard a girl gently dismiss the gossip that was coming from her friends mouths.



Cried out to God while the lights were off in Church with all my heart.
Even though I saw and felt nothing I know He was there and is still here with me.
I don't need to understand why He loves me so much.
I don't need to understand HOW He could continually forgive me.
I just need HIM.
 More, and more each day.

♥cheche

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Thank you ♥ !!!

For your sweet encouraging words on the previous post. I was sure that I had just ended my bloglife by confessing that to you guys. And I do apologize for the depressed temperament that it was written in. I actually was under the influence of guilt, shame and lies as a few of you pointed out. The "UMBRELLA" of grace was definitely nowhere to be seen but I have learned something very pivotal to my walk.

When my life seems out of control and I am struggling (not with sin) but with letting GOD be sovereign and work everything out sometimes I tend to turn inwards to CHE and see what Chetreanna can accomplish in THE MEAN time while God is at work. And then I make quite the mess and recently fell into quite the sinfully bad habit.

But you ladies reminded me of that grace we walk in. And that grace that I often can't fathom BEING ENOUGH. Or else, why would I try taking matters into my own hands??

God is bigger then all of this. And I will not give up on myself. I will continue to walk to the best of my capabilities and love with all of my heart. Though I do not understand how God could die for me I know that He did and that He rose again not just to someday bring us home but that we ourselves WOULD RISE IN HIS DEATH as new creations.

My prayer is that GOD would break my heart continually. And renew in me a fully spirit driven life. That I would not stray from His plans. That I would not sin against Him. For HE IS MY GOD. And it hurts so much to disobey Him.

I know in blogworld we can often come off as extremely strong and perfect and flawless but I do have bad moments in the midst of amazing days. I am Human. And I really appreciate the fact that despite how weak I can be that the Lord has given me an outlet with real women who could care less about perfection.

From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU LADIES. God is doing great things. This I know.

♥cheche

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Sunday Relief!!

OR also known as...
NO WORK DAY FOR CHE.
Which just so happens to rhyme as well :).
Heyyyy!

Work is over for the week and while I made a nice lump of change it will all be gone before it is able to hit my wallet. WHICH IS GOOD because it will be going to those very, very neglected places that CheChe just has not been keeping up with. :( Yes, feel free to shake your head at me. BUT GOD HAS A PLAN and I am so thankful that I am single and cleaning up this small little financial mess I have made and not in love and preparing for marriage while trying to clean it up. A relationship would truly only be a beautiful obstacle attached to the already burdensome situation I am currently in. Thank you God for reminding me of that the other day.


I got to hang out with friends last night. My brothers and sisters from church. Mi Familia. They are such an amazing group of guys and gals and I honestly felt like I never left being around all of them. I got to hang out for a bit with my closest sister/friend/love as well after we all went to eat when church was over. She and I had an amazing time in my car just praying and sharing what has been going on with us spiritually and even emotionally since we last saw each other. It is CRAZY how seeing someone you are able to be real with for even an hour can be sooo refreshing and rewarding. God is so faithful to meet us when we gather together in HIS name isn't HE?

Jehovah-Shalom: GOD OF PEACE


may God grant me and all of you that PEACE that surpasses all understanding through FAITH in His son Jesus Christ who died and rose again.

After this past week I KNOW that is exactly what I need :).



I have a couple of QUESTIONS for my next Q&A vlog but you know I am a talker so I'd like some meatier stuff and just a few more questions to work off of :).




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I shall be back with more but until then... CIAO BELLAS!!


♥CHECHE

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Sweet Death

Romans 7:6 "But now, by dying to what once bound us, we have been released from the law so that we serve in the new way of the Spirit, and not in the old way of the written code"

I know! Death is so in style when reading the bible, especially Romans. Death, death, death! To the unbelievers eyes this verse is probably not only foolish but pretty depressing. So isn't it pretty amazing that this verse causes my heart to leap wildly within my chest and my Spirit to rejoice?
I know that in my group of friends at church, we are always speaking of that freedom in Christ. To be honest, I feel that I have yet to fully experience that freedom that comes from living a life fully surrendered to Him. I feel that although my God is king of my life and Love of my life as well, that I am still on the brink of just busting out in who He is in me. I want that full experience so desperately and I know that Christ will set me completely free in Him. But I have fears, worries, anxieties that are not of God, of course, and have yet to be fully released from my heart. I don't say this as a cop out in any way just to let you all know a little bit about the girl who write about Jesus all the time.
I'm not perfect.
And you know what!? That is perfectly fine because God is the one that has released me from the law so that I may live to serve Him in the new way of the Spirit. I have a High Priest that I can go to at anytime when I am struggling or need help. I have access to the power and glory that is Christ and His plans to refine and perfect me are happening as I speak, and there is nothing wrong with who I am as a believer today.
I don't live to please mankind anymore or to make sure that I am seen a certain way in their eyes because Gods eyes are the only eyes that I wish to be seen by.
This verse really struck me because I was so bound before God. So bound to the every thought of mankind about me. So bound to the lies that Satan was feeding me on a constant basis. So bound and now I am so free. The enemy will use things and situations to try to make me feel condemned as a Christian woman. As if, I am not serving in Spirit enough. I am not evangelizing enough, I am not saying Christ name enough, I am not praying enough, I am not HOLY enough.

You know what though, I am pretty sure that God says something completely different about who I am as His child. I am sick of Satan and His lies and I am sick of not stepping out in Faith more as well. I want it all from you Lord. I still struggle. I still have no clue how to overcome this sinful nature in completeness but I know that the Spirit of God is working in me and He hears every plea and every cry and He has already answered me. Praise God for that relief of not having to work at it myself. I work out my salvation in Christ only. Not by my own might.

I don't really know what I just wrote. I kinda just blabbed but I know that God was definitely speaking and ministering to me in this mornings devotional.

Pray that I bear the fruit of GOD, that is all I could ever want on this earth &heart;

Romans 7:4 So, my brothers, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God.

To all my brothers and sisters out there. Keep dieing and keep bearing that righteous fruit. The sweetness of death in our Lord Jesus Christ 'tis  amazing, is it not?

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Don't LOSE FAITH

Beth Moore: "SO LONG INSECURITY"!
A good friend and sister of mine recently recommended me this book and although, at the time, I was reading another book with a plan to start another one right after (I really like reading. Can you tell? :p) I finally got the opportunity to sit down with MRS. MOORE and hear what she has to say.
I was able to reach Chapter 5 today before the arrival of my mother at the bookstore and Beth Moore had my heart and mind completely engaged and soaking it all in. So far, I have been able to see that she really understands the struggles that women face today (as well as men) in the area of insecurity. She breaks it down so easily and also shows examples from the BIBLE, from her life as well as close friends and women she has had the opportunity to speak with. One thing that resonated with me and is probably the theme of my current LESSON from GOD is that "SECURITY IN ANY EARTHLY THING Can SIMPLY NOT BE SUSTAINED"- BETH MOORE.
Who I was as a woman, my worth, my beauty, my happiness was all wrapped into what _______ thought of me or what _______ voiced about me. I was so insecure that I had chosen my rock to be in a MAN.
An IMPERFECT CREATION. 

(Matthew 7:26 (NKJV) ²⁶ “But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand:) Now even those who are unfamiliar with this scripture can guess just HOW AND WHY this man was deemed FOOLISH by JESUS. IF you do not understand I suggest you try building something on sand or better yet, OUT OF SAND! Then look at it and see how stable it is. Sure it looks nice and as long as the weather is nice it stands firm. However, watch a strong breeze blow through or a wave crash on it. IT WILL SURELY COME CRASHING DOWN. 

When we invest our worth into something IMPERFECT like MAN, THE GYM, THE PLASTIC SURGEON, OUR BEAUTY, OUR EDUCATION or OUR STATUS we are only seeking to have our walls come crashing down eventually. I know I am guilty of this and I HONESTLY BELIEVE THE ONLY GRACE THIS EARTH WAS JESUS CHRIST himself. Insecurity is at the root of this. While none of these are in themselves EVIL they have one thing in common in the given context. THEY ARE BEING USED IN THE PLACE OF JESUS! God is the ultimate healer and comforter. When our SECURITY is invested in things of this world well we are secure in FALSE HOPE. I know it is a scary thought but this is a fact.

This book really ministered to me! I pray if anyone feel the least bit apt to read it that you pick it up and pray for GOD to speak to you in his own personal way. Maybe you know a fellow sister or woman who could afford to take a peak as well. GOD WORKS IN CRAZY WAYS SO IF HE WANTS TO USE YOU JUST LET HIM :)!


ON A SIDE NOTE: 
the devil is not happy with me :). Which makes me happy because SATAN hates to see GOD working in our lives. He comes right when your walking strong with Christ and tries to deter you off your path. He tries to show you who YOU ARE which is always the same. LESS THAN THE CHILD OF GOD YOU ARE. I recently have been receiving ATTACKS (not in any way that is physical or threatening). There are just people who see women and men seeking GOD, studying the word, ministering to others, evangelizing..etc. So they get it in their heads that you think your something or that you think you are better. Then , like the pharisees, they watch you and wait for you to "slip" (just like they did JESUS). Once you do, because your not perfect, they give you the big HA HA! "AREN'T YOU CHRISTIAN?", "DON'T YOU READ THE BIBLE?", "That wasn't very GODLY!". They smile because they think they've revealed some big secret! CHRISTIANS AREN'T PERFECT!! It is headline news in their world.

None of us have the right to condemn each other. WE are to encourage, correct, rebuke, teach with the word of GOD. Because without GOD we are just judging. These people cannot be pleased. You must realize that the only eyes of importance on you are the eyes of GOD. And he will always forgive you if you choose to repent and turn from your sin. And if you are not sinning and just stumbling, or messing up have mercy on these people who judge you and deny GOD in their own lives. If you really didn't do anything wrong at all know that GOD is with you and it is him they seek to hurt. Focus on pleasing the father and do not lose faith in doing good. He isn't looking for PERFECT servants, he is looking for faithful servants. BELIEVE in his name and he will guide you and mold you into the new creation you were designed to be. Nobody wants to look at the sin in their own lives. So when a CHRISTIAN comes along and says that they love JESUS and follow him people turn to you and they seek to destroy you and bring you down to their level. NEVER LOSE FAITH IN DOING WHAT IS GOOD! IF YOU FALL LOOK TO CHRIST WHO HAS AN EXTENDED HAND AND STAND BACK UP IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!


AND ALWAYS BE IN PRAYER FOR THESE PEOPLE! ANGER DOES NOT HELP OPEN THEIR EYES!



Thank you for listening ♥ 


p.s. I am really excited for my 330 quiet time with my friends ANGIE AND MICHELLE tomorrow!! God has brought them into my life for some reason and I look forward to getting into his word with them.

I have a heavy heart for WOMEN. I want to uplift and empower us in the word of GOD because that is the only way I know will work. I know GOD has great plans for me and I pray that I am able to inspire women in his name until the day he takes me. WE are worth knowing THE LOVE of GOD and LOVING OURSELVES! Please know this and if you don't ask GOD TO HELP YOU! I have to do this constantly but I am learning so much from him just by asking. He is so faithful. :)


ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY!!

♥ cheche

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oh august

I'm a spoiled, little CALIFORNIA GIRL and my sunshine is out there beckoning for me to get dressed and off this time thief the computer. It feels like a lovely 80degrees out there and GOD is in the breeze putting a warm smile, that I could feel, around my skin.

Today I'm headed to hang out with the ex and maybe ride my mountain bike around his neighborhood and newport, beach. Since seeking GOD and surrendering to him each morning since then I've felt the selfish desires that aroused when I spoke to him dissipate. He is a great friend and I look forward to enjoying our friendship as far as THE LORD plans to take it.

I find that rather amusing ^^. Seeing that just a couple of days ago I felt my heart breaking and shattering just at the thought of him and knowing he had finally moved on and was even going out with other women. It's amusing to me but just shows the wonders of GODS amazing power to restore all things.

today I am in LOVE with the life I have just as it is. I'm excited for the HARVEST CRUSADES this weekend (*going FRIDAY!) at the angel stadium and am just looking forward to what life has in store.

FOR ANYONE WILLING TO PRAY PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR MY CURRENT JOB SITUATION. I feel my time there is slipping slowly and I would love to be directed in a new area. Of course, I need the next job to be something that completely is not crazy sales oriented or focused on harassing customers at the bank!! lol  But whatever GOD has in store is of course preferred. I just pray to be in his will.

ALSO BE PRAYING FOR BIBLE COLLEGE. I'm really sure that I'm headed there I just don't know when or how. My next step is to look at a campus or two and check the facilities but I'm a procrastinator by nature and have not yet gotten that STEP OUT THE WAY. So be praying for me to start taking action in the steps GOD has put down for me.

I love being single today. 

It feels like a real summer ♥

and it feels like LOVE is 

right around the corner.

Oh, thank you GOD. 

Your my first love.

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early morning (TEHEEHEE)

My current conundrum is LOVE LOST.

My heart is actually aching and the funny thing is, I broke up with him?

Well, let me

   clear things UP...

I broke up with him to focus purely on god SINCE i am a new believer and our relationship 9ish months ago was not that of a god pleasing and fearful couple.  I didn't realize that having an unevenly yolked relationship while trying to have a strong walk with the LORD will only be a burden when you are actually focused on GOD. I learned my first lesson which is you cannot have a relationship where one is running towards God while the other is doing , well something else.  I guess stagnant would be the appropriate word to use. I was a new believer and on fire and my partner was a believer who had strayed.

Anyways that was NOVEMBERish.  I am only now beginning to really FEEL the loss.

AND IT HURTS YOU GUYS.  We are both still friends and I love him more than any man next to the LORD and he is growing so tremendously. And it hurts because THAT is what I so desperately wanted when we were together. and i guess i have also learned that being faithful to god is not always easy nor does it make sense from our small human point of view.  But i can see that god is at a large work in my life today and NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT PAINS ME i must stay true to him and faithful because I know, he has a better plan for me than I do for myself.

                      Yet, this truth doesn't make it easier.

This all could be handled a lot differently, of course if I had a life without GOD.  I made a life altering choice the day I accepted him into my HEART and gave my life to CHRIST and the situations that used to BAFFLE me with abounding hopeless thoughts are now situations of purpose. EVENTS all leading to the next stage of life that god has predestined before me.

I cried my eyes out today and yesterday. And i even talked to my ex about what I was feeling and that helped because for me it got everything out in the open so that he could understand the way I was aCting and treating him. I feel like I should definitely be OVER HIM.  People have always said when you break up that person is meant to be in your past for a reason. But I guess for now he isn't? I don't have any answers and whenever I try to carry out MY WILL FOR MYSELF I wind up hurt, confused and in a worst place than I was to begin with. LOL

i also know that IF god has that in store for me than he will deliver me to that place and for now I just need to surrender the situation entirely to his haNds and pray to be in his will.

I am learning and growing so much but i NEED PRAYER and I am far from perfect and FAR from alright with everything that is going on in my life right now.  I just know that I am comforted when I am reminded of who MY GOD is. and just how powerful he is and what a great and faithful deliverer he is. this is my hope and my rock. This is my comfort in CHRIST<3

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