Thank you ♥ !!!

For your sweet encouraging words on the previous post. I was sure that I had just ended my bloglife by confessing that to you guys. And I do apologize for the depressed temperament that it was written in. I actually was under the influence of guilt, shame and lies as a few of you pointed out. The "UMBRELLA" of grace was definitely nowhere to be seen but I have learned something very pivotal to my walk.

When my life seems out of control and I am struggling (not with sin) but with letting GOD be sovereign and work everything out sometimes I tend to turn inwards to CHE and see what Chetreanna can accomplish in THE MEAN time while God is at work. And then I make quite the mess and recently fell into quite the sinfully bad habit.

But you ladies reminded me of that grace we walk in. And that grace that I often can't fathom BEING ENOUGH. Or else, why would I try taking matters into my own hands??

God is bigger then all of this. And I will not give up on myself. I will continue to walk to the best of my capabilities and love with all of my heart. Though I do not understand how God could die for me I know that He did and that He rose again not just to someday bring us home but that we ourselves WOULD RISE IN HIS DEATH as new creations.

My prayer is that GOD would break my heart continually. And renew in me a fully spirit driven life. That I would not stray from His plans. That I would not sin against Him. For HE IS MY GOD. And it hurts so much to disobey Him.

I know in blogworld we can often come off as extremely strong and perfect and flawless but I do have bad moments in the midst of amazing days. I am Human. And I really appreciate the fact that despite how weak I can be that the Lord has given me an outlet with real women who could care less about perfection.

From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU LADIES. God is doing great things. This I know.

♥cheche