Today I...
Went to church.
Laughed with close friends.
Lip synced worship music to the best of my capabilities.
Realized I don't really know much about anything other than what God did on the cross.
Realized that I want that to desperately be enough.
REALIZED I cannot live in forgiveness without His Holy Spirit.
REALIZED His grace exceeds all boundaries and expectations.
Wanted desperately to fly away.
Looked into the eyes of a man who is attracted to me and felt uncomfortable.
NOT with the fact that He was attracted but that it was ME He was attracted to.
Wanted desperately to ask Him "why?" but instead pretended I didn't notice.
Saw myself in the mirror with eyeliner and mascara on and thought "NOT TOO BAD"
Ate enough and not TOO MUCH.
Logged all my food in my food journal! Two days in a row yay!
Almost clapped when I heard a girl gently dismiss the gossip that was coming from her friends mouths.
Cried out to God while the lights were off in Church with all my heart.
Even though I saw and felt nothing I know He was there and is still here with me.
I don't need to understand why He loves me so much.
I don't need to understand HOW He could continually forgive me.
I just need HIM.
More, and more each day.
♥cheche
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Went to church.
Laughed with close friends.
Lip synced worship music to the best of my capabilities.
Realized I don't really know much about anything other than what God did on the cross.
Realized that I want that to desperately be enough.
REALIZED I cannot live in forgiveness without His Holy Spirit.
REALIZED His grace exceeds all boundaries and expectations.
Wanted desperately to fly away.
Looked into the eyes of a man who is attracted to me and felt uncomfortable.
NOT with the fact that He was attracted but that it was ME He was attracted to.
Wanted desperately to ask Him "why?" but instead pretended I didn't notice.
Saw myself in the mirror with eyeliner and mascara on and thought "NOT TOO BAD"
Ate enough and not TOO MUCH.
Logged all my food in my food journal! Two days in a row yay!
Almost clapped when I heard a girl gently dismiss the gossip that was coming from her friends mouths.
Cried out to God while the lights were off in Church with all my heart.
Even though I saw and felt nothing I know He was there and is still here with me.
I don't need to understand why He loves me so much.
I don't need to understand HOW He could continually forgive me.
I just need HIM.
More, and more each day.
♥cheche
