Friday Night ♥

My dream Bedroom ♥

 

 

So I actually have a secret to confess here blogloves. Are you ready for this juicyness?? 


I cleaned today!!! Well, I did not do that much damage but I threw things away, vacuumed and organized the main part of the eating area that me and my family share. I know... I know... What is next? This is the beginning of my domesticated skills. I can see it now. 

The main reason I should NOT be in a relationship right now came to me while I was sweating over the vacuum. How in the world could I be someones wife right now?? I mean, today when my mom asked me to clean I pretty much gave her the "MOOMMMM... REALLY???" look. Maybe it would be different if I was being asked to help clean up by my husband, someone that God had selected for me to live on this earth with for HIS glory.  But the what if game really doesn't hold up here. I am a lazy 21 year old woman. I may do a lot outside of my home but within my home I enjoy the cycle of eating, sleeping, blogging, eating and more sleeping. The task of getting dressed in the morning sometimes seems like a bit too much. 

I know your all getting really turned off by the woman you have chosen to follow but that is really just who I am today. And you know what. God is going to change that. I already can see Him at work by getting my lazy butt to honor my mother and clean! She was shocked. She would have taken a picture if she could have. 

In regards to the TSUNAMI that hit Japan last night (U.S time) I just want to say that I have never been so anxious and blessed at the same time. I was anxious for those that were killed, for the images being shown on my television of Japan slowly going under water... I was so anxious at what was happening and so blessed that the Lord had already revealed that greater things were to come upon this earth. I watched boats being drawn across Japan by the strong currents and thought to myself "this isn't anything to the great earthquakes that are to come"... That got me praying hard for those unsaved Japanese and for my family that isn't saved as well. We are SO fragile as human beings. WE are so easily broken both physically and mentally. We can be wiped off this planet with the flick of Gods wrist but He chooses to wait in Mercy upon His creation. It is so amazing to see Gods marvelous hand at work and realize just how BIG GOD IS and HOW SMALL WE ARE. Pray for Japan and pray for our nation. Praise God for allowing us to know what is to come through His written word.

Have an amazing FRIDAY NIGHT ladies!!!

♥Chetreanna

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early morning (TEHEEHEE)

My current conundrum is LOVE LOST.

My heart is actually aching and the funny thing is, I broke up with him?

Well, let me

   clear things UP...

I broke up with him to focus purely on god SINCE i am a new believer and our relationship 9ish months ago was not that of a god pleasing and fearful couple.  I didn't realize that having an unevenly yolked relationship while trying to have a strong walk with the LORD will only be a burden when you are actually focused on GOD. I learned my first lesson which is you cannot have a relationship where one is running towards God while the other is doing , well something else.  I guess stagnant would be the appropriate word to use. I was a new believer and on fire and my partner was a believer who had strayed.

Anyways that was NOVEMBERish.  I am only now beginning to really FEEL the loss.

AND IT HURTS YOU GUYS.  We are both still friends and I love him more than any man next to the LORD and he is growing so tremendously. And it hurts because THAT is what I so desperately wanted when we were together. and i guess i have also learned that being faithful to god is not always easy nor does it make sense from our small human point of view.  But i can see that god is at a large work in my life today and NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT PAINS ME i must stay true to him and faithful because I know, he has a better plan for me than I do for myself.

                      Yet, this truth doesn't make it easier.

This all could be handled a lot differently, of course if I had a life without GOD.  I made a life altering choice the day I accepted him into my HEART and gave my life to CHRIST and the situations that used to BAFFLE me with abounding hopeless thoughts are now situations of purpose. EVENTS all leading to the next stage of life that god has predestined before me.

I cried my eyes out today and yesterday. And i even talked to my ex about what I was feeling and that helped because for me it got everything out in the open so that he could understand the way I was aCting and treating him. I feel like I should definitely be OVER HIM.  People have always said when you break up that person is meant to be in your past for a reason. But I guess for now he isn't? I don't have any answers and whenever I try to carry out MY WILL FOR MYSELF I wind up hurt, confused and in a worst place than I was to begin with. LOL

i also know that IF god has that in store for me than he will deliver me to that place and for now I just need to surrender the situation entirely to his haNds and pray to be in his will.

I am learning and growing so much but i NEED PRAYER and I am far from perfect and FAR from alright with everything that is going on in my life right now.  I just know that I am comforted when I am reminded of who MY GOD is. and just how powerful he is and what a great and faithful deliverer he is. this is my hope and my rock. This is my comfort in CHRIST<3

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