Revelation ♥

TODAY my womans bible study finished the study of REVELATION.
Honestly. I wasn't able to participate in the "homework" that much this season.
However we had some amazing women review the previous weeks lesson and chapter so I definitely learned so much about this amazing mystery of a book!!!

I have said it before but coming to the LORD in the beginning and just seeking Him... Well, Revelation was the book that truly set me aflame. I got all JOHN THE BAPTIST and started to just DESIRE for everyone to know CHRIST and all that God has for us and how REAL CHRIST our GOD is! So, so crazy.

Today I really prepared my heart. I was driving and turned off the music and just talked and prayed with my Savior. And boy, it is so funny how when we spend those moments of just real dialogue with the Utmost High how he answers beyond and above our expectations.

When I got to the study they were on the second to last song during the worship ,or as I prefer, songs of praise time. I walked in truly joyful because the Lord had overwhelmed me in my car with just His love and how Real He is and reminded me that despite my idiosyncrasies He truly died JUST for me.
Who would NOT be overwhelmed by that? :)

The speaker got up and covered Revelation 22. I am not here to give you a play by play of that. But the Lords WORD. In the bible it says the WORD became flesh. And in the beginning the WORD was with GOD and the WORD was GOD. I know, a bit heavy to comprehend. HE uses the foolish to shame the wise though so don't feel weird ;). If following JESUS made sense to the HUMAN mind the percentage of believers would be... Well, much more scarce. he he

BUT HIS WORD~!! Ahhh. Just the blessing of that chapter. The blessings He has for us. The way that He revealed to JOHN just how wonderful the new Jerusalem will be. HEAVEN. PARADISE. Being in HIS kingdom. I am brought to tears because I was convicted. Or condemned? I am often confused at to which is which when things like this happen.

I wrote down in my journal a question to GOD. DO I TRULY BELONG IN YOUR KINGDOM?

I make mistakes. YES. I am not perfect. I know. But when I look at the GLORY of the CROSS. The fact, that it is by HIS DEATH, AND HIS BLOOD I am made clean and presentable to the FATHER and written in the book of life... I just doubt my worth. I know. I am just being honest. I know we are sealed, with the promise of HIS HOLY SPIRIT. AND I don't know if GOD or the ENEMY was behind the QUESTION but I prayed that GOD would just shape me into who HE wants me to be for HIM. I told Him I was open, I was ready to do whatever it is that He wanted me to do. I love HIM so much. But I often feel that my love is lacking where HIS love is abundant.

God is so amazing, so great, so personal and intimate. Church is great. I love having a home church to call home and to run to and cry in and just be with people who love the LORD. But it is really the moments in my car with JESUS, the moments at work with JESUS, the moments in my Home with JESUS... That I truly see how BEAUTIFUL He is and how helpless and in need of His grace and mercy I am.

I don't know what the point was of all of this. But this is what I have for you guys. I love you each dearly and most importantly GOD DOES. I just want to be His and only His.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
Pray for me :).

♥ CHECHE

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Friday Night ♥

My dream Bedroom ♥

 

 

So I actually have a secret to confess here blogloves. Are you ready for this juicyness?? 


I cleaned today!!! Well, I did not do that much damage but I threw things away, vacuumed and organized the main part of the eating area that me and my family share. I know... I know... What is next? This is the beginning of my domesticated skills. I can see it now. 

The main reason I should NOT be in a relationship right now came to me while I was sweating over the vacuum. How in the world could I be someones wife right now?? I mean, today when my mom asked me to clean I pretty much gave her the "MOOMMMM... REALLY???" look. Maybe it would be different if I was being asked to help clean up by my husband, someone that God had selected for me to live on this earth with for HIS glory.  But the what if game really doesn't hold up here. I am a lazy 21 year old woman. I may do a lot outside of my home but within my home I enjoy the cycle of eating, sleeping, blogging, eating and more sleeping. The task of getting dressed in the morning sometimes seems like a bit too much. 

I know your all getting really turned off by the woman you have chosen to follow but that is really just who I am today. And you know what. God is going to change that. I already can see Him at work by getting my lazy butt to honor my mother and clean! She was shocked. She would have taken a picture if she could have. 

In regards to the TSUNAMI that hit Japan last night (U.S time) I just want to say that I have never been so anxious and blessed at the same time. I was anxious for those that were killed, for the images being shown on my television of Japan slowly going under water... I was so anxious at what was happening and so blessed that the Lord had already revealed that greater things were to come upon this earth. I watched boats being drawn across Japan by the strong currents and thought to myself "this isn't anything to the great earthquakes that are to come"... That got me praying hard for those unsaved Japanese and for my family that isn't saved as well. We are SO fragile as human beings. WE are so easily broken both physically and mentally. We can be wiped off this planet with the flick of Gods wrist but He chooses to wait in Mercy upon His creation. It is so amazing to see Gods marvelous hand at work and realize just how BIG GOD IS and HOW SMALL WE ARE. Pray for Japan and pray for our nation. Praise God for allowing us to know what is to come through His written word.

Have an amazing FRIDAY NIGHT ladies!!!

♥Chetreanna

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Why have you made me like this? ♥

Romans 9:20 "But indeed, O man, who are you to reply against God? Will the thing formed say to him who formed it, "Why have you made me like this?"

I was praying about what to write to you lovely readers and fellow believers today. I know that I wanted to write but I hadn't opened my Bible yet and I had not asked God to reveal what He wanted to speak to and through me. I often forget who the GLORY is to be made of. I sometimes often look at my tasks, even the most trivial of such, and say "HOW CAN I _____?"

HOW CAN GOD? Is the real question that I can forget. Because God is the one who produces and the true POTTER of us clay, as Paul so eloquently mentions in Romans 9.

The scripture at hand has spoke to me in a few ways. The one that leaps off my mind onto this blog at the moment is "WHY HAVE YOU MADE ME LIKE THIS?" Now, I am a pretty normal human being. I can operate a motor vehicle, I can work a job, I have social awareness, I can laugh and understand most of the human language spoken in my country, I can eat on my own, I can hear, I can see with great vision, I have all of my teeth... I list all of these because I am constantly telling God WHY HAVE YOU MADE ME THIS WAY!??

I don't flat out ask Him but I question my clay-like nature. The body, the vessel that has been given to me. I can't stand it and at times I hate it. I struggled with an eating disorder that stemmed from just hating my body and the way that it looks. I look through all of your blogs and I see beautiful, confident, admirable women in all of you. Some of you even post pictures with models wearing the latest fashions. And I just often feel and think "if only God had given me that body, that vessel!!" It's quite disgusting this disease of always needing something else or something more. Where is my contentment in the things I listed previously?? Well. The answer is there is no contentment because as soon as I turn to God with a furrowed brow about my body I really, really see nothing else. 

I don't see my mobility. The two legs that are capable of so much He has given me. The head on my head with a functioning brain inside of it. The home I live in with two laptops that I have perfect access to. The friendships and sisterhood that has been instilled in my life by Him. The safety of living in the part of Southern California He has placed me in. I don't see GOD when I question who I am on the outside. I only see my flaws and the long list that accompanies it.

I know that I will never be a size 0,1,2,3,4... I know this. I know that I am of African descent and no matter what a pair of hips and a butt are in my future... I know this. I know, I know, I know... But why can I not find the contentment in this knowledge. Why can I not find the joy in Christ alone, despite what I look like. My image of beauty is laughable because it has been something that I am not. I look at the pale, slender, long women of the magazines I love and I think THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. But if THAT IS BEAUTIFUL then what is Chetreanna? You see the conundrum here?

at the bowling alley with some friends

I know that I am being a bit of a down but my point is or was supposed to be that Christ is our definition of beauty on this earth. There is nothing wrong with fashion and fashions standard of beauty but we must not forget who we are identified as in Christ alone. WE must not look away from the beauty that He clothes us in :). We must not forget the beautiful plans our Father has for us and how he knows every kinky, curly hair on my head and loves every little ripple in my derriere. In fact, God sees us naked and there is no shame. There is no shame in what He sees because like Adam and Eve standing in no shame in the garden that is how we stand before God on this earth as believers!! Such a blessing to serve a real, loving and compassionate God.

One of my beautiful sisters in Christ and Me ♥

These are the pieces of my heart that God is asking me to give to Him. Would you pray for me? Would you pray for this warped perception to be done away with and for the Christ-like beauty within to be made known and believed as TRUE BEAUTY! Pray for your non-fat friend who complains about her body, pray for your sister who can't seem to see how gorgeous she is when isn't complaining. Pray for the women of this generation like myself to understand that a number on the scale is non-existent in the things of eternity!

Being Free in our Savior is one that at times requires COMPLETE u-turns. And I pray to turn away from this thought process that denies who GOD is and who I am as the clay. I am blessed to share this with you all and I pray that Christ would be on your heart and mind today and He would whisper the sweet nothings He has for each one of us in your ear.  YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL ♥

praying with some brothers and sisters...♥

♥ Chetreanna ♥

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Revelation ♥

The Revelation study for this past week is going amazing tonight. I really am so excited about the book of Revelation, it was a big part of my first steps in Christ. I remember skimming through and randomly stopping and certain scripture and just feeling so much JOY and FEAR for this nation that I could not sleep that night. I don't understand how certain churches refuse to not even open this book or how anyone can ignore it because it truly is a blessing to read. Revelation !:3 "Blessed is he who reads and those who hear the words of this prophecy, and keep those things which are written in it; for the time is near". The promise is not just a saying God himself gave us that promise within the first three verses of the amazing Prophecy of Jesus Christ given by an angel to his beloved disciple John.

I love how John hears Gods voice and knows it is his and turns around after The Son of Man had spoken. I love how he describes the voice our Lord like that of a trumpet. A powerful and very loud instrument. That is the natural voice of our Savior!? How much he humbled himself to make himself like that of man while he was here on earth. Imagine how crazy it would have been to have Jesus walking around teaching and preaching with a piercing voice like a trumpet? Who would have denied a man like that? Or with a countenance that shines like the sun. No one. For the Devil himself knows Jesus is Lord but Jesus came to die so that we might be saved and he came to save those who were lost. He was not here to boast  favoritism.

I am so unlike you Jesus. I want Glory. I want people to like me and the thought of them not liking me really does make me sad sometimes. I Know you are lord above all and that All Glory is yours but I still am struggling with these things. Thankfully I know that surrendering these things to you daily will bring me to a place where I no longer have to struggle with them. Thank you for hearing me in all my cries!

Well, I still have a bit more work to do So I'm going to go. I wish I could have my family turn the t.v down and just focus 100% on His word and this study but it is a blessing all on its own to Study the Word of God at all. amen

♥cheche

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