Revelation ♥

TODAY my womans bible study finished the study of REVELATION.
Honestly. I wasn't able to participate in the "homework" that much this season.
However we had some amazing women review the previous weeks lesson and chapter so I definitely learned so much about this amazing mystery of a book!!!

I have said it before but coming to the LORD in the beginning and just seeking Him... Well, Revelation was the book that truly set me aflame. I got all JOHN THE BAPTIST and started to just DESIRE for everyone to know CHRIST and all that God has for us and how REAL CHRIST our GOD is! So, so crazy.

Today I really prepared my heart. I was driving and turned off the music and just talked and prayed with my Savior. And boy, it is so funny how when we spend those moments of just real dialogue with the Utmost High how he answers beyond and above our expectations.

When I got to the study they were on the second to last song during the worship ,or as I prefer, songs of praise time. I walked in truly joyful because the Lord had overwhelmed me in my car with just His love and how Real He is and reminded me that despite my idiosyncrasies He truly died JUST for me.
Who would NOT be overwhelmed by that? :)

The speaker got up and covered Revelation 22. I am not here to give you a play by play of that. But the Lords WORD. In the bible it says the WORD became flesh. And in the beginning the WORD was with GOD and the WORD was GOD. I know, a bit heavy to comprehend. HE uses the foolish to shame the wise though so don't feel weird ;). If following JESUS made sense to the HUMAN mind the percentage of believers would be... Well, much more scarce. he he

BUT HIS WORD~!! Ahhh. Just the blessing of that chapter. The blessings He has for us. The way that He revealed to JOHN just how wonderful the new Jerusalem will be. HEAVEN. PARADISE. Being in HIS kingdom. I am brought to tears because I was convicted. Or condemned? I am often confused at to which is which when things like this happen.

I wrote down in my journal a question to GOD. DO I TRULY BELONG IN YOUR KINGDOM?

I make mistakes. YES. I am not perfect. I know. But when I look at the GLORY of the CROSS. The fact, that it is by HIS DEATH, AND HIS BLOOD I am made clean and presentable to the FATHER and written in the book of life... I just doubt my worth. I know. I am just being honest. I know we are sealed, with the promise of HIS HOLY SPIRIT. AND I don't know if GOD or the ENEMY was behind the QUESTION but I prayed that GOD would just shape me into who HE wants me to be for HIM. I told Him I was open, I was ready to do whatever it is that He wanted me to do. I love HIM so much. But I often feel that my love is lacking where HIS love is abundant.

God is so amazing, so great, so personal and intimate. Church is great. I love having a home church to call home and to run to and cry in and just be with people who love the LORD. But it is really the moments in my car with JESUS, the moments at work with JESUS, the moments in my Home with JESUS... That I truly see how BEAUTIFUL He is and how helpless and in need of His grace and mercy I am.

I don't know what the point was of all of this. But this is what I have for you guys. I love you each dearly and most importantly GOD DOES. I just want to be His and only His.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
Pray for me :).

♥ CHECHE

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We are in the Seed ♥

Romans 9:6 "But it is not that the word of God has taken no effect. For they are not all Israel who are of Israel," 7 "nor are they all children because they are the seed of Abraham; but, In Isaac your seed shall be called."

 These verses echo Jesus throughout the gospels. He speaks of how many will call his name, claiming they cast out demons even in his name, but God will say to them "turn from me you workers of iniquity. I never knew you." (Excuse me if I butchered that verse). 

Also in John 8:39 "[...] If you were Abraham's children, you would do the works of Abraham." 40 " BUT now you seek to kill Me, a Man who has told you the truth which I heard from God. Abraham did not do this."

Christ was constantly speaking of the phonies and the fakes within the body. He was always calling us out in our hypocrisy. In Romans 9:6-7 I am reminded that it is in the SEED that we are even called. The seed of Isaac whom Jesus eventually came. The promise is available but not all who want it will receive it. Not all will be called of the seed in that hour of judgment. I find myself wanting to take inventory. I desire to be without falsehood so that I may have that complete assurance in my faith because at times I wonder how can a woman like me be used at all? I know that God loves me but I am brought once again to the thought of how much do I love the Lord. He has done great things for me and through me. He has changed me in ways that are supernatural and not of this worlds technique or standards. Yet, I stumble at times and I look at the pavement. perhaps. a bit too long when I hit it. I sometimes wonder how can He continually love someone who questions their capabilities in an ALL CAPABLE GOD?

I am human I suppose. I love my King but I know who I am. Isn't that such a predicament. To see what you have and still be you. I pray I am not being a Debbie downer about this all I'm just so exhausted of it all. Faith is something that I have through the privilege of having encountered the Truth. But it isn't something that we as Christians and Believers in Christ should use to be stagnant or worst, to write off the sins we continually commit, saying "Oh... God knows my heart and He won't turn me away because I have FAITH in Him." Its the activity of growing in Faith not SITTING on Faith that gives us assurance isn't it??

Well I am really loving my devotions through the book of Romans. What are some of your favorite Books in the Bible? What are some of your favorite verses of scripture? What is GOD revealing about Himself in your walk with Him?

I have such a beautiful creator. I really do. 

Thank you for stopping by!

♥ Chetreanna ♥

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Feeling Dead ♥

Romans 6:4 "We were therefore buried with him though baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the father, we too may live a new life."

Excuse the blunt blog title but that is exactly what came to mind this morning. I am not going to sit here and put on the false pretense of understanding Romans with great ease. Oh no, this is something that I have struggled with accepting and also something that my pride is being broken of. 

Growing up in the earliest years I can only remember being an A student and constantly being acknowledged for the intelligence I possessed that made me a tad bit above average. However, although I eventually became a wreck from 7th grade onwards and never really got back on the right track with grades throughout High School, the mentality that I am above average never left me. Hence, this is how the smart___ that I was known to be the later years of adolescence came about.

Now that you have a brief history you can understand how I struggled and almost wanted to over look Romans. Chapter 1 and 2 were vicious and the apostle Paul, chief of sinners, does not hold back the knowledge he had of being raised and educated in the finer things in life. He was indeed a well learned man and it is displayed throughout the New Testament in his many writings. This is something that I have only recently come to accept. Paul can write in a way that makes me feel out of place. Less than mentally. And that my friends is one of my biggest fears.

I fear the perception of others in regards to me in a detrimental way at times. The Lord has brought me pretty far but I still struggle with wondering how I am being perceived. In early life I had my intelligence. That is what I clung to. Although it didn't show in my grades I was constantly feeding it. I was a searcher of answers and discoverer of truth. It was nice to come to class having not done my homework *except in math* and participate and debate the topics at hand. That was the rock I stood upon and it made me feel just a bit less secure and a lot more brilliant in the eyes of others. Romans is just something that Jesus used to reveal this to me. It has always been in me but when you are praying for the Lord to break you of all things not of Him, for God to reveal Himself within you, to be transformed more into His image... Well, your bound to start seeing the things about yourself that once were not bothersome as quite irritating.

I praise God for His Holy and living word the Bible. I praise Him for answering each and every prayer. He is swift to deliver guys, let me just tell you that. And today in Romans when I look at how I am being buried in the death of Christ so I may live in His resurrection I'm struck with the feeling that I just don't feel quite dead. I mean I know I am forgiven, sanctified by my belief, and justified by my faith but I feel as if I am in the grave unconscious and not FULLY DEAD. 

This is my hope as I press onward to the goal. This is my prayer today Dear Father. I want to be DEAD IN YOU fully. I want to be consumed in every endeavor and every ounce of my being Father. Show me my pride so I can pray to surrender it. Show me my barriers and hindrances in this walk of mine so I may grow in abounding grace through you. SHOW ME FATHER WHAT AND WHO YOU WANT ME TO BE!! Apart from you I am but dust Lord. Resurrect me in you so I may truly "live a new life" in you Lord Jesus.

Now I know He has already done great things but you guys I am a greedy little thing. I want more. I crave the Lords nearness and presence. I crave His healing powers. If you knew you had access to the Creator of this world who still lives wouldn't you be just a BIT needier than usual.

I ask you believer, or unbeliever, to utilize the beautiful tool we have in the power of Christ. Don't let your pride keep you from surrendering more of yourself to Him. Don't let your life be mediocre in living for the God of this universe. BE all you can be fully in Him and He will ROCK YOUR WORLD. It hurts to be refined but how else does one make precious metals such as gold?? Be broken for His healing powers and you will never regret the weakness within. 

Lord, I want to be dead. Thank you for showing me just how much I need you. Even when I at times think I am doing great and lacking nothing I thank you for showing me just how weak your creation is. I ask you to strip me of my pride and raise me up into the beautiful woman, future wife and mother that I will someday be. Teach me to use my gifts father for your glory. Transform my life Father! I am so overjoyed in who you are and what you plan to do with me. Thank you Lord for your death in which I am made alive.

Amen

♥cheche 

Have a blessed Thursday...

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