Confessional ♥

I follow other blogs not just because of what they have to say but also because of how they look.
Yes. I judge blogs based on appearance. I know, I can't help it. I have tried and tried and I just can't get past the color schemes, hurtful use of fonts...etc. So, if I am following your blog know that I am vain in my reading. Although your voice is a beautiful light in my world here in Southern California, I also like what I see. :( Sorry. I had to get that off my chest. It really has been bugging me.

I have lost vision so many times on this thing. My first posts on here were out of an aching heart.I had finally put to death a sinful relationship that I just couldn't seem to release no matter how much anguish it brought me. And when I finally did I realized the loneliness of severing that limb was what I was really avoiding. I discovered the blog world and had a voice. I had so many things to say about my struggles and Christ. It was my comfort. It still is a definite refuge but I often get caught up in THE NUMBERS, THE COMMENTS, THE MEANINGLESS ATTRACTIONS that this world can bring. I am not perfect but I really, truly pray Christ would come first in all I do in a consistent and joyful way.

There are so many women I follow who INSPIRE me. They have beautiful faith and demonstrate their understanding of just amazing grace. Christ suffered but rose again. And I get to witness beautiful fruits of His resurrection throughout the blog community in various shapes and forms. It is strengthening and lovely to have access to you guys when I come home to a family of unbelievers. When I go to work and witness the ramifications of disobedience firsthand amongst friends and peers. When I walk the streets and ache wondering how so many people could choose to live in ways that only cause grief and misery rather than giving God their hearts...

It hurts. And then I come here and I wonder how I can make you all happy. Or make you smile. Or give you something to enjoy.

With all do respect, how dare I think this blog is about anything or anyone other than Christ. It is most certainly not about you or me. But I forget. I drift from my "first love",

I was reading today and God just really called me out. 

He wants men and women who put their hearts before His throne constantly. Not just once a month or week. But in all that we do we surrender first to Him.

I love you all and this day has been amazing. I am praying for my future husband lots lately. I am also praying for my heart. Would you do me a favor and do the same if you can? 

Thank you! :)

♥ Chetreanna

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Sweet Death

Romans 7:6 "But now, by dying to what once bound us, we have been released from the law so that we serve in the new way of the Spirit, and not in the old way of the written code"

I know! Death is so in style when reading the bible, especially Romans. Death, death, death! To the unbelievers eyes this verse is probably not only foolish but pretty depressing. So isn't it pretty amazing that this verse causes my heart to leap wildly within my chest and my Spirit to rejoice?
I know that in my group of friends at church, we are always speaking of that freedom in Christ. To be honest, I feel that I have yet to fully experience that freedom that comes from living a life fully surrendered to Him. I feel that although my God is king of my life and Love of my life as well, that I am still on the brink of just busting out in who He is in me. I want that full experience so desperately and I know that Christ will set me completely free in Him. But I have fears, worries, anxieties that are not of God, of course, and have yet to be fully released from my heart. I don't say this as a cop out in any way just to let you all know a little bit about the girl who write about Jesus all the time.
I'm not perfect.
And you know what!? That is perfectly fine because God is the one that has released me from the law so that I may live to serve Him in the new way of the Spirit. I have a High Priest that I can go to at anytime when I am struggling or need help. I have access to the power and glory that is Christ and His plans to refine and perfect me are happening as I speak, and there is nothing wrong with who I am as a believer today.
I don't live to please mankind anymore or to make sure that I am seen a certain way in their eyes because Gods eyes are the only eyes that I wish to be seen by.
This verse really struck me because I was so bound before God. So bound to the every thought of mankind about me. So bound to the lies that Satan was feeding me on a constant basis. So bound and now I am so free. The enemy will use things and situations to try to make me feel condemned as a Christian woman. As if, I am not serving in Spirit enough. I am not evangelizing enough, I am not saying Christ name enough, I am not praying enough, I am not HOLY enough.

You know what though, I am pretty sure that God says something completely different about who I am as His child. I am sick of Satan and His lies and I am sick of not stepping out in Faith more as well. I want it all from you Lord. I still struggle. I still have no clue how to overcome this sinful nature in completeness but I know that the Spirit of God is working in me and He hears every plea and every cry and He has already answered me. Praise God for that relief of not having to work at it myself. I work out my salvation in Christ only. Not by my own might.

I don't really know what I just wrote. I kinda just blabbed but I know that God was definitely speaking and ministering to me in this mornings devotional.

Pray that I bear the fruit of GOD, that is all I could ever want on this earth &heart;

Romans 7:4 So, my brothers, you also died to the law through the body of Christ, that you might belong to another, to him who was raised from the dead, in order that we might bear fruit to God.

To all my brothers and sisters out there. Keep dieing and keep bearing that righteous fruit. The sweetness of death in our Lord Jesus Christ 'tis  amazing, is it not?

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