Yes. I judge blogs based on appearance. I know, I can't help it. I have tried and tried and I just can't get past the color schemes, hurtful use of fonts...etc. So, if I am following your blog know that I am vain in my reading. Although your voice is a beautiful light in my world here in Southern California, I also like what I see. :( Sorry. I had to get that off my chest. It really has been bugging me.
I have lost vision so many times on this thing. My first posts on here were out of an aching heart.I had finally put to death a sinful relationship that I just couldn't seem to release no matter how much anguish it brought me. And when I finally did I realized the loneliness of severing that limb was what I was really avoiding. I discovered the blog world and had a voice. I had so many things to say about my struggles and Christ. It was my comfort. It still is a definite refuge but I often get caught up in THE NUMBERS, THE COMMENTS, THE MEANINGLESS ATTRACTIONS that this world can bring. I am not perfect but I really, truly pray Christ would come first in all I do in a consistent and joyful way.
There are so many women I follow who INSPIRE me. They have beautiful faith and demonstrate their understanding of just amazing grace. Christ suffered but rose again. And I get to witness beautiful fruits of His resurrection throughout the blog community in various shapes and forms. It is strengthening and lovely to have access to you guys when I come home to a family of unbelievers. When I go to work and witness the ramifications of disobedience firsthand amongst friends and peers. When I walk the streets and ache wondering how so many people could choose to live in ways that only cause grief and misery rather than giving God their hearts...
It hurts. And then I come here and I wonder how I can make you all happy. Or make you smile. Or give you something to enjoy.
With all do respect, how dare I think this blog is about anything or anyone other than Christ. It is most certainly not about you or me. But I forget. I drift from my "first love",
I was reading today and God just really called me out.
He wants men and women who put their hearts before His throne constantly. Not just once a month or week. But in all that we do we surrender first to Him.
I love you all and this day has been amazing. I am praying for my future husband lots lately. I am also praying for my heart. Would you do me a favor and do the same if you can?
Thank you! :)
♥ Chetreanna
