oh august

I'm a spoiled, little CALIFORNIA GIRL and my sunshine is out there beckoning for me to get dressed and off this time thief the computer. It feels like a lovely 80degrees out there and GOD is in the breeze putting a warm smile, that I could feel, around my skin.

Today I'm headed to hang out with the ex and maybe ride my mountain bike around his neighborhood and newport, beach. Since seeking GOD and surrendering to him each morning since then I've felt the selfish desires that aroused when I spoke to him dissipate. He is a great friend and I look forward to enjoying our friendship as far as THE LORD plans to take it.

I find that rather amusing ^^. Seeing that just a couple of days ago I felt my heart breaking and shattering just at the thought of him and knowing he had finally moved on and was even going out with other women. It's amusing to me but just shows the wonders of GODS amazing power to restore all things.

today I am in LOVE with the life I have just as it is. I'm excited for the HARVEST CRUSADES this weekend (*going FRIDAY!) at the angel stadium and am just looking forward to what life has in store.

FOR ANYONE WILLING TO PRAY PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR MY CURRENT JOB SITUATION. I feel my time there is slipping slowly and I would love to be directed in a new area. Of course, I need the next job to be something that completely is not crazy sales oriented or focused on harassing customers at the bank!! lol  But whatever GOD has in store is of course preferred. I just pray to be in his will.

ALSO BE PRAYING FOR BIBLE COLLEGE. I'm really sure that I'm headed there I just don't know when or how. My next step is to look at a campus or two and check the facilities but I'm a procrastinator by nature and have not yet gotten that STEP OUT THE WAY. So be praying for me to start taking action in the steps GOD has put down for me.

I love being single today. 

It feels like a real summer ♥

and it feels like LOVE is 

right around the corner.

Oh, thank you GOD. 

Your my first love.

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my first day

College doesn't make me happy. The idea behind college adds to what the world would like to see in me and what I would like to feel from others when they acknowledge my status. But college doesn't make me happy. The lord does! I delight in him and never feel quite "stuffed" from his servings of love, mercy and grace. I desire to get deeper into his word and seek him without the distractions of life.
But when does my will align with gods and am I choosing to speak on his behalf when I say college doesn't make me happy AND I would like to take time apart to seek?
Exactly it is all really quite confusing at this point which directs me to the only solution of PRAYER. When god has spoken to me he has made it quite clear the steps or actions that are needed to take and while I KNOW he has put Bible College in my heart the outside circumstances of my life are quite opposing.
1) Finances- i have bills and work and a car payment that won't be complete for another 2
whole years! Up and going to Bible College would prove to delay these things and
maybe even leave me phoneless & carless which = BILL FREE with a sacrifice
2) I have never been away from my home.. And although the thought of LIVING on my
own excites me its a thought accompanied by facts. The facts being me already
graduating from college and me with a career of some sort that supports this financial
leap of faith.
3) While I am blessed beyond reason with free schooling I find that financial aid gives me
a sort of obligation to be faithful and continue with my education uninterrupted
because many would kill to have free schooling. And i have it. But at what risk?

The trouble with college that I am facing is mainly I go to a secular school. Which is perfectly find and I am in now way knocking the public educational system. However, I am finding more and more each semester that my faith and my beliefs are being attacked and I haven't even done anything to receive it. I know that when someone attacks GOD I should duck and let him accept it because it is him not me that they are offended by but it hurts to hear teachers filling the minds of youth with poisonous and well thought slanders. I have not once encountered a god fearing teacher who KNOCKED all the beliefs that the world finds acceptable so why should non-believers be allowed to do so?
THE IDEA OF SEPERATION OF CHURCH AND STATE is quite dumb. It really means nothing when I am in school receiving the teachings of the world and hearing JESUS CHRIST slandered.

My truth is I am weak to these attacks. I want to have revenge be mine but it is the LORDS REVENGE not mine. I feel as if I am falling the further I get to my educational goals of having a bachelors and masters the closer I am to encountering the beliefs of the blind and I am leaning on God the whole time just praying to make it through each course.

Well I'm off to do some seeking and reading and of course the enjoyment of LIFE itself in all its beauty and creation.
LOVE YOU ALL<3

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