College doesn't make me happy. The idea behind college adds to what the world would like to see in me and what I would like to feel from others when they acknowledge my status. But college doesn't make me happy. The lord does! I delight in him and never feel quite "stuffed" from his servings of love, mercy and grace. I desire to get deeper into his word and seek him without the distractions of life.
But when does my will align with gods and am I choosing to speak on his behalf when I say college doesn't make me happy AND I would like to take time apart to seek?
Exactly it is all really quite confusing at this point which directs me to the only solution of PRAYER. When god has spoken to me he has made it quite clear the steps or actions that are needed to take and while I KNOW he has put Bible College in my heart the outside circumstances of my life are quite opposing.
1) Finances- i have bills and work and a car payment that won't be complete for another 2
whole years! Up and going to Bible College would prove to delay these things and
maybe even leave me phoneless & carless which = BILL FREE with a sacrifice
2) I have never been away from my home.. And although the thought of LIVING on my
own excites me its a thought accompanied by facts. The facts being me already
graduating from college and me with a career of some sort that supports this financial
leap of faith.
3) While I am blessed beyond reason with free schooling I find that financial aid gives me
a sort of obligation to be faithful and continue with my education uninterrupted
because many would kill to have free schooling. And i have it. But at what risk?
The trouble with college that I am facing is mainly I go to a secular school. Which is perfectly find and I am in now way knocking the public educational system. However, I am finding more and more each semester that my faith and my beliefs are being attacked and I haven't even done anything to receive it. I know that when someone attacks GOD I should duck and let him accept it because it is him not me that they are offended by but it hurts to hear teachers filling the minds of youth with poisonous and well thought slanders. I have not once encountered a god fearing teacher who KNOCKED all the beliefs that the world finds acceptable so why should non-believers be allowed to do so?
THE IDEA OF SEPERATION OF CHURCH AND STATE is quite dumb. It really means nothing when I am in school receiving the teachings of the world and hearing JESUS CHRIST slandered.
My truth is I am weak to these attacks. I want to have revenge be mine but it is the LORDS REVENGE not mine. I feel as if I am falling the further I get to my educational goals of having a bachelors and masters the closer I am to encountering the beliefs of the blind and I am leaning on God the whole time just praying to make it through each course.
Well I'm off to do some seeking and reading and of course the enjoyment of LIFE itself in all its beauty and creation.
LOVE YOU ALL<3
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But when does my will align with gods and am I choosing to speak on his behalf when I say college doesn't make me happy AND I would like to take time apart to seek?
Exactly it is all really quite confusing at this point which directs me to the only solution of PRAYER. When god has spoken to me he has made it quite clear the steps or actions that are needed to take and while I KNOW he has put Bible College in my heart the outside circumstances of my life are quite opposing.
1) Finances- i have bills and work and a car payment that won't be complete for another 2
whole years! Up and going to Bible College would prove to delay these things and
maybe even leave me phoneless & carless which = BILL FREE with a sacrifice
2) I have never been away from my home.. And although the thought of LIVING on my
own excites me its a thought accompanied by facts. The facts being me already
graduating from college and me with a career of some sort that supports this financial
leap of faith.
3) While I am blessed beyond reason with free schooling I find that financial aid gives me
a sort of obligation to be faithful and continue with my education uninterrupted
because many would kill to have free schooling. And i have it. But at what risk?
The trouble with college that I am facing is mainly I go to a secular school. Which is perfectly find and I am in now way knocking the public educational system. However, I am finding more and more each semester that my faith and my beliefs are being attacked and I haven't even done anything to receive it. I know that when someone attacks GOD I should duck and let him accept it because it is him not me that they are offended by but it hurts to hear teachers filling the minds of youth with poisonous and well thought slanders. I have not once encountered a god fearing teacher who KNOCKED all the beliefs that the world finds acceptable so why should non-believers be allowed to do so?
THE IDEA OF SEPERATION OF CHURCH AND STATE is quite dumb. It really means nothing when I am in school receiving the teachings of the world and hearing JESUS CHRIST slandered.
My truth is I am weak to these attacks. I want to have revenge be mine but it is the LORDS REVENGE not mine. I feel as if I am falling the further I get to my educational goals of having a bachelors and masters the closer I am to encountering the beliefs of the blind and I am leaning on God the whole time just praying to make it through each course.
Well I'm off to do some seeking and reading and of course the enjoyment of LIFE itself in all its beauty and creation.
LOVE YOU ALL<3
