LAST DAY OF SUMMER

I start school Monday.

I actually am really excited despite not having a functional car :).

What I am really not looking forward to, if I can be frank with you that is, is having to deal with our generation. 

The campus will be full of returning students and new young and FULL OF CRAZY ENERGY kids. 

I enjoyed my last semester a lot because I took all of my classes off-campus then came on campus for my music appreciation class and workout class and it was already evening so the campus was only full of serious students. I really am something. For whatever reason I have it in my head that I am so much older and mature than kids my age but the truth is I have never felt my age and it's only when I am around people my age in large numbers that I am reminded that I cannot stand our generation (for the most part). It feels like high school amplified sometimes. 

I pray I have classes with students who can balance fun and focus. 

Let's hope my mom lets me use her beach cruiser. It's so adorable y'all. It sits on our patio doing nothing but looking fine. All it needs is the front wheel tightened and a bike lock (which I plan to buy later today) and we are gooood to go :). I can just see it now, me on the bike, sunglasses on, books on the back strapped up.. ahhh EXERCISE and EDUCATION!! These are some of the simple things that bring me joy. Along with a plethora of SWEETS :).

ARE ANY OF YOU GUYS OVERLY INTUITIVE?

I've been wondering if this is a gift from GOD or if all women possess such strong intuition. I almost feel psychic sometimes. I can feel CHANGE in the air and it feels like the WORLD is about to change drastically in some way. I've also been feeling the earth move beneath me all day yesterday and the day before. It wasn't like an earthquake though. Just like steady shaking beneath me going straight up from the soles of my feet to the top of my head. I felt I was definitely going crazy until the second day came around last night and I asked my friend if she felt the same thing and she said YEAH "I THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY".  She also admitted she felt there was change coming in our personal lives with work and that we were experiencing a tremendous amount of growth. 

That just made me wonder if there are other women who experience such waves of feelings and visions of the future, I love this gift because it has saved me many times from going into bad situations or avoiding certain things. However, I don't feel I am alone... :) 

I should be in bed. Getting some kind of rest. 

THANK YOU TO MY NOW 8 FOLLOWERS! I'm very excited to SHARE my world with you all :)

love you all and be blessed!

HAPPY SUNDAY FUN-DAY

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my first day

College doesn't make me happy. The idea behind college adds to what the world would like to see in me and what I would like to feel from others when they acknowledge my status. But college doesn't make me happy. The lord does! I delight in him and never feel quite "stuffed" from his servings of love, mercy and grace. I desire to get deeper into his word and seek him without the distractions of life.
But when does my will align with gods and am I choosing to speak on his behalf when I say college doesn't make me happy AND I would like to take time apart to seek?
Exactly it is all really quite confusing at this point which directs me to the only solution of PRAYER. When god has spoken to me he has made it quite clear the steps or actions that are needed to take and while I KNOW he has put Bible College in my heart the outside circumstances of my life are quite opposing.
1) Finances- i have bills and work and a car payment that won't be complete for another 2
whole years! Up and going to Bible College would prove to delay these things and
maybe even leave me phoneless & carless which = BILL FREE with a sacrifice
2) I have never been away from my home.. And although the thought of LIVING on my
own excites me its a thought accompanied by facts. The facts being me already
graduating from college and me with a career of some sort that supports this financial
leap of faith.
3) While I am blessed beyond reason with free schooling I find that financial aid gives me
a sort of obligation to be faithful and continue with my education uninterrupted
because many would kill to have free schooling. And i have it. But at what risk?

The trouble with college that I am facing is mainly I go to a secular school. Which is perfectly find and I am in now way knocking the public educational system. However, I am finding more and more each semester that my faith and my beliefs are being attacked and I haven't even done anything to receive it. I know that when someone attacks GOD I should duck and let him accept it because it is him not me that they are offended by but it hurts to hear teachers filling the minds of youth with poisonous and well thought slanders. I have not once encountered a god fearing teacher who KNOCKED all the beliefs that the world finds acceptable so why should non-believers be allowed to do so?
THE IDEA OF SEPERATION OF CHURCH AND STATE is quite dumb. It really means nothing when I am in school receiving the teachings of the world and hearing JESUS CHRIST slandered.

My truth is I am weak to these attacks. I want to have revenge be mine but it is the LORDS REVENGE not mine. I feel as if I am falling the further I get to my educational goals of having a bachelors and masters the closer I am to encountering the beliefs of the blind and I am leaning on God the whole time just praying to make it through each course.

Well I'm off to do some seeking and reading and of course the enjoyment of LIFE itself in all its beauty and creation.
LOVE YOU ALL<3

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