In need of HIS motivation in all areas ♥

Wow, It sure feels as if I have been absent for more than just a couple of days. I haven't really much to say about WHY I have not had the time to get on here other than I have a job and was of service at my Church yesterday and those two dominate my lovely life when I am not dreading my school day.
Nothing much has taken place and I actually find myself not really having any thoughts that I am extra excited to share with you... hmm.
Well, I guess I can talk about my lazy day of the Sabbath. he he.
I woke up, ate some chips, watched LETTERS TO JULIET (one of my new favorite romantic movies), ate a bowl of MAPLE BROWN SUGAR OATMEAL (is there any other way to eat oatmeal?) and then proceeded to take a nap with the silence that filled my the little apartment me and my family reside in.
All of this sounds quite lovely, however, I have 2 rough drafts due tomorrow in English and the will to get them started has not arisen. Instead I am stressing and anxious about walking into class without my assignments in hand, as well as, the simple fact that I feel like such a hypocrite after getting so irritated with my classmates last week. I must admit I am ashamed and even embarrassed to show my face in that room again. Oh, the lovely rigmarole of being a young adult and not knowing how to put pride aside and just accept, forgive and move on. Too bad the Bible doesn't have a book specifically on Jesus in his young adult years. I'm sure there would have been some great lessons for all of us in that one. Paul and his epistles would have definitely been overshadowed in favoritism by the young, Jewish Jesus whose time had not yet come :).

I am certainly fearful that I am not cut out to be a college graduate. These thoughts are always creeping in my head when I am not finished with an assignment. The same thoughts would come in high school. I just want so desperately to be one of those students who puts their studies first and does not solely study and complete the tasks they wish to. Such a curse.

Fellowship is getting in the way. Rather, I am letting fellowship get in the way. Staying out late with friends and getting to know each other and eating and laughing is fine but I have priorities. I have noticed many of my Christian college friends head home at a decent time! While I tend to hang around until the parties over. I need to be more persistent in becoming the woman I desire to be. An educated one! All of this silly hanging out and living in the moment is such a distraction. What do you think??

Sometimes I wonder if I were to die in my sleep or tomorrow even if me not having completed my masters would matter in my heavenly body or more importantly to my Father and Lord and Savior. I suppose they would look to the heart of my motivations in my school work. Would I be pleased with what they saw? HM. Definitely food for thought on my end.

I have these fantasies and they get in the way of me taking the necessary steps. I pray to walk with faith and be strengthened in the path that God himself has planned for me, his beloved daughter. Christ has given me the power that rose him from the grave so I should not be allowing school to prove as any type of impossibility. All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me! Amen

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FUNKY FRIDAY ♥

I'm extremely happy with my beach cruiser. I rode around town today and just enjoyed the air hitting my face and the beautiful CITY that me and my family are so BLESSED to live in.

Getting into the word on work morning and school mornings is proving to be a bit difficult. I am proving to be a bit difficult actually. Lol. I'm a lazy college student and even though I love JESUS with all my heart I'd much rather sleep in with JUST enough time to get dressed and head to work. WHERE IS THE TIME FOR MY KING THOUGH? I suppose waking up earlier and going to bed MUCH earlier would help with this issue. I just prefer to start my day with him rather than FINISH my day with him. WHEN DO YOU ENJOY YOUR PERSONAL STUDY TIME WITH CHRIST??
My campus was dead today when I rode up on my bike. Then after my math class was finished I realized wow, it's FRIDAY. That is why there aren't many people here today! I'm pretty BRIGHT huh?

I have 1/2 a ton of English to do this weekend and only a backpack full of math and then there is the lovely ANTHROPOLOGY class reading that I have, no intention of believing, to read this weekend as well. I've already began both the English and Anthropology work so don't pity me. Your girl is one step ahead of the game ;). lol just wanted to let y'all know what I am up to SCHOLASTICALLY and btw MY ENGLISH CLASS is going to really help me become and AMAZING writer and I'm blessed to have such a passionate teacher. I am very excited about her :).

Today I have a few plans. I only had one plan but since ____ called and said he'd like to hang out for a bit I decided after hearing his voice and FEELING nothing at all (so strange isn't it?) that it would be okay given we didn't hang out at my house and that it be quick. I feel like GOD has really kneaded me and gotten all those painful bumps of attachment and pride, in regards to _____, out of me. I really am starting to feel HEALED. Maybe even ready to accept dating. Less than a month ago the thought of a NEW relationship left me feeling hopeless but I truly feel GOD is preparing my heart for something AMAZING and that will GLORIFY HIM! Thank you for hearing and answering my prayers LORD. You know just how much pain I was in not too long ago. Thank you for giving me the strength and the faith to WAIT ON YOUR HEALING and to receive the wisdom you were giving me :). You are so amazinG!!!

I'm also getting pastries and coffee with my two new christ-loving girlfriends around 330. GOD BLESS THEM and their fellowship. I have been in continuous prayer for an abundance of christian girlfriends and GOD continues to plant them as he pleases. It's so nice to talk about how god is working in the lives of myself and others and also to speak about my walk with GOD and have people around who understand and accept and believe his truth. It's like being with FAMILY, you know?

I did a photo walk around the lake with a good friend!! Tell me what you think.
p.s it was soooo fun taking pics all day. I think I fell in love with the art of photography!

my gorgeous friend working her topmodel pose. lol

me loving the wall..

my recent 8dollar splurge :)

my friends 21st below! ain't she a beauty

alright I'm done with that. TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OR ANYTHING AT ALL FOR THAT MATTER!

have a blessed FUNKY FRIDAY ;)

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LAST DAY OF SUMMER

I start school Monday.

I actually am really excited despite not having a functional car :).

What I am really not looking forward to, if I can be frank with you that is, is having to deal with our generation. 

The campus will be full of returning students and new young and FULL OF CRAZY ENERGY kids. 

I enjoyed my last semester a lot because I took all of my classes off-campus then came on campus for my music appreciation class and workout class and it was already evening so the campus was only full of serious students. I really am something. For whatever reason I have it in my head that I am so much older and mature than kids my age but the truth is I have never felt my age and it's only when I am around people my age in large numbers that I am reminded that I cannot stand our generation (for the most part). It feels like high school amplified sometimes. 

I pray I have classes with students who can balance fun and focus. 

Let's hope my mom lets me use her beach cruiser. It's so adorable y'all. It sits on our patio doing nothing but looking fine. All it needs is the front wheel tightened and a bike lock (which I plan to buy later today) and we are gooood to go :). I can just see it now, me on the bike, sunglasses on, books on the back strapped up.. ahhh EXERCISE and EDUCATION!! These are some of the simple things that bring me joy. Along with a plethora of SWEETS :).

ARE ANY OF YOU GUYS OVERLY INTUITIVE?

I've been wondering if this is a gift from GOD or if all women possess such strong intuition. I almost feel psychic sometimes. I can feel CHANGE in the air and it feels like the WORLD is about to change drastically in some way. I've also been feeling the earth move beneath me all day yesterday and the day before. It wasn't like an earthquake though. Just like steady shaking beneath me going straight up from the soles of my feet to the top of my head. I felt I was definitely going crazy until the second day came around last night and I asked my friend if she felt the same thing and she said YEAH "I THOUGHT I WAS GOING CRAZY".  She also admitted she felt there was change coming in our personal lives with work and that we were experiencing a tremendous amount of growth. 

That just made me wonder if there are other women who experience such waves of feelings and visions of the future, I love this gift because it has saved me many times from going into bad situations or avoiding certain things. However, I don't feel I am alone... :) 

I should be in bed. Getting some kind of rest. 

THANK YOU TO MY NOW 8 FOLLOWERS! I'm very excited to SHARE my world with you all :)

love you all and be blessed!

HAPPY SUNDAY FUN-DAY

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