Wow, It sure feels as if I have been absent for more than just a couple of days. I haven't really much to say about WHY I have not had the time to get on here other than I have a job and was of service at my Church yesterday and those two dominate my lovely life when I am not dreading my school day.
Nothing much has taken place and I actually find myself not really having any thoughts that I am extra excited to share with you... hmm.
Well, I guess I can talk about my lazy day of the Sabbath. he he.
I woke up, ate some chips, watched LETTERS TO JULIET (one of my new favorite romantic movies), ate a bowl of MAPLE BROWN SUGAR OATMEAL (is there any other way to eat oatmeal?) and then proceeded to take a nap with the silence that filled my the little apartment me and my family reside in.
All of this sounds quite lovely, however, I have 2 rough drafts due tomorrow in English and the will to get them started has not arisen. Instead I am stressing and anxious about walking into class without my assignments in hand, as well as, the simple fact that I feel like such a hypocrite after getting so irritated with my classmates last week. I must admit I am ashamed and even embarrassed to show my face in that room again. Oh, the lovely rigmarole of being a young adult and not knowing how to put pride aside and just accept, forgive and move on. Too bad the Bible doesn't have a book specifically on Jesus in his young adult years. I'm sure there would have been some great lessons for all of us in that one. Paul and his epistles would have definitely been overshadowed in favoritism by the young, Jewish Jesus whose time had not yet come :).
I am certainly fearful that I am not cut out to be a college graduate. These thoughts are always creeping in my head when I am not finished with an assignment. The same thoughts would come in high school. I just want so desperately to be one of those students who puts their studies first and does not solely study and complete the tasks they wish to. Such a curse.
Fellowship is getting in the way. Rather, I am letting fellowship get in the way. Staying out late with friends and getting to know each other and eating and laughing is fine but I have priorities. I have noticed many of my Christian college friends head home at a decent time! While I tend to hang around until the parties over. I need to be more persistent in becoming the woman I desire to be. An educated one! All of this silly hanging out and living in the moment is such a distraction. What do you think??
Sometimes I wonder if I were to die in my sleep or tomorrow even if me not having completed my masters would matter in my heavenly body or more importantly to my Father and Lord and Savior. I suppose they would look to the heart of my motivations in my school work. Would I be pleased with what they saw? HM. Definitely food for thought on my end.
I have these fantasies and they get in the way of me taking the necessary steps. I pray to walk with faith and be strengthened in the path that God himself has planned for me, his beloved daughter. Christ has given me the power that rose him from the grave so I should not be allowing school to prove as any type of impossibility. All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me! Amen
♥cheche
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Nothing much has taken place and I actually find myself not really having any thoughts that I am extra excited to share with you... hmm.
Well, I guess I can talk about my lazy day of the Sabbath. he he.
I woke up, ate some chips, watched LETTERS TO JULIET (one of my new favorite romantic movies), ate a bowl of MAPLE BROWN SUGAR OATMEAL (is there any other way to eat oatmeal?) and then proceeded to take a nap with the silence that filled my the little apartment me and my family reside in.
All of this sounds quite lovely, however, I have 2 rough drafts due tomorrow in English and the will to get them started has not arisen. Instead I am stressing and anxious about walking into class without my assignments in hand, as well as, the simple fact that I feel like such a hypocrite after getting so irritated with my classmates last week. I must admit I am ashamed and even embarrassed to show my face in that room again. Oh, the lovely rigmarole of being a young adult and not knowing how to put pride aside and just accept, forgive and move on. Too bad the Bible doesn't have a book specifically on Jesus in his young adult years. I'm sure there would have been some great lessons for all of us in that one. Paul and his epistles would have definitely been overshadowed in favoritism by the young, Jewish Jesus whose time had not yet come :).
I am certainly fearful that I am not cut out to be a college graduate. These thoughts are always creeping in my head when I am not finished with an assignment. The same thoughts would come in high school. I just want so desperately to be one of those students who puts their studies first and does not solely study and complete the tasks they wish to. Such a curse.
Fellowship is getting in the way. Rather, I am letting fellowship get in the way. Staying out late with friends and getting to know each other and eating and laughing is fine but I have priorities. I have noticed many of my Christian college friends head home at a decent time! While I tend to hang around until the parties over. I need to be more persistent in becoming the woman I desire to be. An educated one! All of this silly hanging out and living in the moment is such a distraction. What do you think??
Sometimes I wonder if I were to die in my sleep or tomorrow even if me not having completed my masters would matter in my heavenly body or more importantly to my Father and Lord and Savior. I suppose they would look to the heart of my motivations in my school work. Would I be pleased with what they saw? HM. Definitely food for thought on my end.
I have these fantasies and they get in the way of me taking the necessary steps. I pray to walk with faith and be strengthened in the path that God himself has planned for me, his beloved daughter. Christ has given me the power that rose him from the grave so I should not be allowing school to prove as any type of impossibility. All things are possible through Christ who strengthens me! Amen
♥cheche
