BLOG GIVEAWAY & FAITH IN HIS PROMISES~

Initially I didn't have anything particular to blog about today. I am at school and stressed out and in need of a massage and CHURCH tonight.

Sadly both are looking very dim. Lord, I desperately need my car fixed. At least where I could go to CHURCH services independently and not have to rely on blessings sent as friends and my mom. LoL. I am really blessed and have not really had to suffer because of all the amazing GODLY women the Lord has put in my life and their services of taking me home or picking me up :). But unfortunately I am getting to the point where pride REALLY does not want to ask anyone, as well as my mother, for rides anymore. I just feel like I am overstaying my welcome minus the living at someones home part.

School is stressful y'all. I know that GOD has kept me here so that I am prepared for what he has in store. I truly believe that. But I *CHETREANNA WHITE* am my worst academic enemy. My English teacher gave me more than the enough time to complete this ANALYTICAL MAP based off the 88 page reading. However, one must start and finish the 88 page reading in order to carry out the task and accomplish anything. UGHHH. I was a bum and chose to NOT get started on this task until yesterday. The time I devoted did not SUFFICE because the reading is not just some straight through read. It is a very complex dialogue of essays that you should allow a few days to read and to absorb and perhaps have a dictionary on hand for words, that may arise, that you are unfamiliar with. I know I have nobody to blame here but myself which really angers me. My problem is I want to be the best at everything I set out to do, yet, I mess up and do stupid, young, immature things like skipping/postponing assignments and I am placed in this overwhelming, insecure and anxious state of mind on campus.  I jut want to go back in time (impossible I know!) and borrow the money to BUY my book so that I could start the assignment the day of. Rather than being broke, not asking my mom for the money (pride) and waiting 4days until my paycheck to purchase it and adding another 3days of not reading it to that.
PHEW. I feel a little bit better getting that demon off my back but the anxiety will probably not fade until I attend class.

I am pretty sure I will not be able to make it up but nonetheless I know that the only thing I can do is KEEP IT MOVING! Go to the class empty handed and take this as a learning opportunity to do all the assigned work on time. I can not afford to mess this up. Seriously. I get financial aid and my g.p.a is something that I have worked hard to get to . I only want to raise it not LOWER it and anything lower than a B. ughhh. Let us just not think about it okay. ha ha  THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD! And what a faithful and trusting shepherd he is. IT is us dumb, wandering sheep that have the issues. Goodness. I just gotta keep on moving and stay on the path. This is not a life or death situation Che. Calm down. ahhhh much better. Thank God for this gift of writing!


BLOG GIVEAWAY!!!

Although I am extremely competitive when it is something I WANT I must share this amazing news. A favorite blogger of mine is having a giveaway on her page!! The giveaway has probably got to be one of the most exciting ones I have had a chance to hear about :).

Go Check out Kelly Ann s blog to learn more about the giveaway at  TAYLOR HOUSE run by the lovely CHAUCEE !! I really feel alot better talking about something that excites me :).


Yes, the day has a lot more hope now that I am writing. JEREMIAH 29:11. This is the verse I shared with my cousin a week or so back. It helped her and seeing in how my birthday is SEPTEMBER 20th, my dear cousin bought me a journal after she saw me complaining about how I didn't have too many pages left in the one I am using. *about 2 weeks at the most left of space* So she bought me a new black leather journal *LOVE YOU SHARA!!* And a gift card to Ross :). As well as an amazing CHRISTIAN birthday card. I read it and it was adorable and then she says did you see the bottom left. Plastered at the bottom of the card was JEREMIAH 29:11!! She didn't realize until after she had already purchased it that it was there. Isn't our God an amazing and never dull God?  That verse is popping up for a reason! He is reminding me of his unwavering promise! Set in stone just for me and anyone else who calls upon the name of Jesus and believes.
Thank you Lord for reminding me :)!


Well I have a class to go to. Thank you all for listening! go join the giveaway!! Chaucee is a sweetie and I would love nothing more than to hear she is ALL SOLD out of cowls :).


Blessing and peace your way this MONDAY!


♥ cheche

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Don't LOSE FAITH

Beth Moore: "SO LONG INSECURITY"!
A good friend and sister of mine recently recommended me this book and although, at the time, I was reading another book with a plan to start another one right after (I really like reading. Can you tell? :p) I finally got the opportunity to sit down with MRS. MOORE and hear what she has to say.
I was able to reach Chapter 5 today before the arrival of my mother at the bookstore and Beth Moore had my heart and mind completely engaged and soaking it all in. So far, I have been able to see that she really understands the struggles that women face today (as well as men) in the area of insecurity. She breaks it down so easily and also shows examples from the BIBLE, from her life as well as close friends and women she has had the opportunity to speak with. One thing that resonated with me and is probably the theme of my current LESSON from GOD is that "SECURITY IN ANY EARTHLY THING Can SIMPLY NOT BE SUSTAINED"- BETH MOORE.
Who I was as a woman, my worth, my beauty, my happiness was all wrapped into what _______ thought of me or what _______ voiced about me. I was so insecure that I had chosen my rock to be in a MAN.
An IMPERFECT CREATION. 

(Matthew 7:26 (NKJV) ²⁶ “But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand:) Now even those who are unfamiliar with this scripture can guess just HOW AND WHY this man was deemed FOOLISH by JESUS. IF you do not understand I suggest you try building something on sand or better yet, OUT OF SAND! Then look at it and see how stable it is. Sure it looks nice and as long as the weather is nice it stands firm. However, watch a strong breeze blow through or a wave crash on it. IT WILL SURELY COME CRASHING DOWN. 

When we invest our worth into something IMPERFECT like MAN, THE GYM, THE PLASTIC SURGEON, OUR BEAUTY, OUR EDUCATION or OUR STATUS we are only seeking to have our walls come crashing down eventually. I know I am guilty of this and I HONESTLY BELIEVE THE ONLY GRACE THIS EARTH WAS JESUS CHRIST himself. Insecurity is at the root of this. While none of these are in themselves EVIL they have one thing in common in the given context. THEY ARE BEING USED IN THE PLACE OF JESUS! God is the ultimate healer and comforter. When our SECURITY is invested in things of this world well we are secure in FALSE HOPE. I know it is a scary thought but this is a fact.

This book really ministered to me! I pray if anyone feel the least bit apt to read it that you pick it up and pray for GOD to speak to you in his own personal way. Maybe you know a fellow sister or woman who could afford to take a peak as well. GOD WORKS IN CRAZY WAYS SO IF HE WANTS TO USE YOU JUST LET HIM :)!


ON A SIDE NOTE: 
the devil is not happy with me :). Which makes me happy because SATAN hates to see GOD working in our lives. He comes right when your walking strong with Christ and tries to deter you off your path. He tries to show you who YOU ARE which is always the same. LESS THAN THE CHILD OF GOD YOU ARE. I recently have been receiving ATTACKS (not in any way that is physical or threatening). There are just people who see women and men seeking GOD, studying the word, ministering to others, evangelizing..etc. So they get it in their heads that you think your something or that you think you are better. Then , like the pharisees, they watch you and wait for you to "slip" (just like they did JESUS). Once you do, because your not perfect, they give you the big HA HA! "AREN'T YOU CHRISTIAN?", "DON'T YOU READ THE BIBLE?", "That wasn't very GODLY!". They smile because they think they've revealed some big secret! CHRISTIANS AREN'T PERFECT!! It is headline news in their world.

None of us have the right to condemn each other. WE are to encourage, correct, rebuke, teach with the word of GOD. Because without GOD we are just judging. These people cannot be pleased. You must realize that the only eyes of importance on you are the eyes of GOD. And he will always forgive you if you choose to repent and turn from your sin. And if you are not sinning and just stumbling, or messing up have mercy on these people who judge you and deny GOD in their own lives. If you really didn't do anything wrong at all know that GOD is with you and it is him they seek to hurt. Focus on pleasing the father and do not lose faith in doing good. He isn't looking for PERFECT servants, he is looking for faithful servants. BELIEVE in his name and he will guide you and mold you into the new creation you were designed to be. Nobody wants to look at the sin in their own lives. So when a CHRISTIAN comes along and says that they love JESUS and follow him people turn to you and they seek to destroy you and bring you down to their level. NEVER LOSE FAITH IN DOING WHAT IS GOOD! IF YOU FALL LOOK TO CHRIST WHO HAS AN EXTENDED HAND AND STAND BACK UP IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!!


AND ALWAYS BE IN PRAYER FOR THESE PEOPLE! ANGER DOES NOT HELP OPEN THEIR EYES!



Thank you for listening ♥ 


p.s. I am really excited for my 330 quiet time with my friends ANGIE AND MICHELLE tomorrow!! God has brought them into my life for some reason and I look forward to getting into his word with them.

I have a heavy heart for WOMEN. I want to uplift and empower us in the word of GOD because that is the only way I know will work. I know GOD has great plans for me and I pray that I am able to inspire women in his name until the day he takes me. WE are worth knowing THE LOVE of GOD and LOVING OURSELVES! Please know this and if you don't ask GOD TO HELP YOU! I have to do this constantly but I am learning so much from him just by asking. He is so faithful. :)


ENJOY YOUR FRIDAY!!

♥ cheche

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August 16th♥

This turned out to be an amazing day. I woke up and got into the word (not immediately). I'm pretty sure I took the time to brush my teeth, clean and inspect them then put on my over sized towel that goes to my knees and sit down and read out of John 7. I was quite excited and prayed sort of in a rush before opening up his scriptures. I asked for FORGIVENESS because I'm just not there yet with a lot of things in life. Money and I tend to end up in compromising situations. I have issues with spending ONLY what I need to and what has been allotted to me and it tears me up mentally because I know that I am not in the lords will when doing those things.

After studying I made some delicious wheat and flax pancakes. Honestly I made six and although they were fairly thin I still ate all of them!

(this actually ended up being my only major meal of the day sadly because when I went to coffee with LENA:

iced tea lemonade

then after church 2 cookies 

then yogurt land and 

then a bowl of oatmeal at home)

The pancakes were delicious with my AGAVE NECTAR and so very warm. However, I substituted coconut oil for SUNFLOWER OIL this time and the sunflower oil just gave them a bit of a different after taste. I need more coconut oil :(. It just isn't the same without coconut oil in the cabinets.

I then preceded to watch ENCHANTED while I waited to see if I would be getting a ride to church or not. I was going to ride my bike for a little but I ended up deciding against it since I have no lock and therefore no secure way of leaving my bike somewhere and walking around. But ENCHANTED was really nice while I waited on my couch comfortably. I find myself really happy to have Disney movies and the few "clean" films that my family owns in my house these days. I really can't stand the movies that once brought me to tears laughing or have complete foul, and inappropriate dialogue and story lines. These films actually upset me and I get an irritating headache. The LORD is so powerful in how he changes us that our bodies literally react to things differently.

I have this hardcore romantic and happy film obsession. It has been ongoing for about 2 years now and I only see it growing. While I did enjoy ATONEMENT a lot I was sad that the love scene had to be so drastic and that directors seem to feel a film can't get the message of passion or love across without a SEX SCENE. At least, her clothes were on but still the thoughts and images are enough to cause sinful thoughts and actions to someone weak in those areas. This I think is what bothers me the most because I'm a movie buff and even study theater but I am constantly having to turn down films or leave movies because they can't just keep it Classy AND CLEAN!

Well, enough about that. I guess that was a topic that I really haven't been able to release from my mind because I was ready to write two more paragraphs on the topic.

I have a confession. I LOVE BLOGGING! but I don't know what to write about some nights and me being the perfectionist that I am I feel if I don't have anything that sounds amazing to me to write about then why even bother wasting anyone else time? ARE THERE ANY OTHER BLOGGER'S OUT THERE WHO STRUGGLE WITH THIS AS WELL? I'D REALLY LOVE SOME ADVICE ON HOW TO FEEL OR GET INSPIRED :)!

So, I try to keep my ex off limits when I write because I'm paranoid that he will not only read this but think that whatever I am writing is very not right on my part and I just don't want anyone to be talked about behind their backs from MY end. I just feel convicted when I give into it and I know how it feels to have others talking about you behind your back and it isn't a gratifying experience.

But nonetheless as a woman I am going to need to vent about my ex or future boyfriend or husband somehow and I don't see how that can be seen as "BAD" unless I'm slandering them or something right? I don't know but here I go anyways..

When my car broke down, now, two days ago I wasn't really nervous or panicky. I was disappointed about missing the Sunday service though :(. But i realized one of my most reliable "friends" is him. And in the past he was always someone that at least sounded concerned about what ever difficulties I was facing (for the most part at least). He had even used his triple AAA service to help me with a flat before which really meant a lot. So eventually I thought to get in contact with him after I called my sister then called the police out of lack of options. the thing was I realized that I had text him the night before seeing how he was after a week of not talking to him at all and the last time I had car problems I had called him and felt kind of like I was being taught a lesson for seeking him you know? 

I KNOW I SOUND CRAZY RIGHT? I'm not trying to say that my ex is why my car is not working. I think my fuel pump is the reason my car is not working. hahahhahaha Anyways, GOD IS ENOUGH and he can't be enough until I let him be enough. I think I need to just let my ex go (which i believe I have sine then) But also let him go from my list of needs. I don't need him. I may want his comfort but that is just me being selfish and seeking temporary happiness. I am a woman and I was designed to love men but I also was created to serve and worship the LIVING GOD and that is something I cannot slip away from/

Anyways it turns out my ex was of no help and actually didn't make the effort to really get back in touch with me after saying the infamous "I'll call you right back line" that is the theme of our relationship lol. I mean call me easily agitated but if my friend was stuck in the middle of the street somewhere needing assistance I'd probably call them back like I said I would? And then he did the whole "are you mad at me. I suck" bit and I was just thinking dude I"M STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET CAN WE PUT YOU ASIDE FOR A SECOND. ahahha see now i am done writing about my ex sorry for that.

Well, I'm tired and have touched on every topic I think I could at this hour. I love you all and anyone who is reading  thanks! it really means a lot

BE BLESSED♥cheche

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