[♥] 1Corinthians 4:5

1Corinthians 4:5 "Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God."

Oh dear God. Please give me your power so I may live this out fully. 

This verse that speaks boldly to judgment is quite a convicting one dear bloggies. I think of Christ washing the disciples feet in a complete display of humility and I am reminded that Judas, the one who would soon after hand betray Jesus and deliver him to His enemies, was one of those disciples whose feet Jesus washed. He could have taken that time to stop at Judas and tell everyone how wicked the heart of this disciple was and rebuke him (rightly so) of his deceit and pride. No. That is not the God I serve. Jesus took the feet of Judas and washed them clean along with the other disciples. He made Himself so low on this earth. Born in rags and died in rags. Beaten until his skin was gone on his back, dragged, thorns driven into his scalp, nails driven into his WRISTS.

I know we often hear of hands but the crucifixion was a tradition of killing someone in which they were sure to die in humility. They would actually pierce through the wrists, which we all know, is where many important veins are and many have commited suicide this way.

This same God asks me not to judge. I know I fall short in this area and I can only pray to have the same grace that brings me to humility and the richness of the humble life.

In the Corinthian church believers were becoming 1Cor 3:4 worldly. They had began to break in factitious circles claiming who they followed. Some boasted in Apollos, some in Paul some in Cephas. But their boasting came purely from the focus of MAN. It is relevant today within church as well. Presbyterian, Baptist, Pentecostal, Lutheran... These are a lot of the titles that believers hold in their head forgetting that 1Corinthians 3:23 "[...] you are of Christ, and Christ is of God."

I know. Kind of shatters that attachment you may have to YOUR pastor, YOUR church and YOUR denomination. Even further in the way YOU study the bible, the commentary YOU READ, the translation that everyone in Your congregation uses. The truth is the scripture is what we should all be living in not our church. That is only the place that we gather together to praise God as a body. We are the church. Me sitting here at my computer reading my bible and writing my thought THIS is Church. Our bodies are the temples that God should dwell not only at our home Church. I know we can distance ourselves from God easily but this is important to remember because otherwise where does our faith really rest?

God isn't a denomination. He is GOD almighty. He will not judge based on our Church of attendance on earth He will look directly at our hearts. He doesn't look upon any part of the bride and say the feet are best or the hands or the face. He looks at us children of His kingdom equally favoring none more than the other. And this is what He is addressing in His word. How can we say we are the body of Christ when we turn our noses or faces away from our brothers and sisters gathering in another city or judge the brother next to us with a tattoo of Scripture on his arm or the sister next to us who is not convicted in the ways that Christ is convicting us? The new covenant, the new promise this NEW TESTAMENT is the reason we are able to call God our King. Remember that the Old Testament, the old covenant and the OLD PROMISE was the one that God established to point us to Him. To Christ. The messiah who would come. But instead, the Jews of those days became religious. They looked only at the outside. They did not love. They did not praise God. They had forgotten who God was and turned Him into a reason to judge. A reason to hate and treat others poorly. This covenant was one they broke because their hearts were far from God. And today we live by the grace of God in FAITH not in the LAW.

We are a divided body today. I see in on TV. I witness it in community. And I understand that it is the result of me looking at me.Thankfully grace is covering us today as it has all along. I just exhort you, along with myself, to make sure that our boasting is strictly in the LORD because when we look at ourselves we see others in light of ourselves and judgment, no matter how minor, shall always be waiting to be rendered when we are seeing through those fleshy eyes. 

I am a child of GOD. (This is excluding the cults that claim to know Jesus but deny everything He claimed he was) I have no reason to judge my brother of faith. God has called me in His love and mercy and I am to love Him fully and lean completely on Him. Not on who my pastor is or what church I am going to. The spirit is the one who guides us not ourselves. I love this verse simply because it is talking directly to me in so many ways. 

I pray we would like Paul be children of God and nothing more. Realizing just how much we have gained in this supernatural adoption and just how much we do not by any comprehensible means deserve it. I pray for the Lord to break me of my attachments to the things and people of this world. I know that I am weak GOD still you love me and you use me. Thank you so much for that. May the women and men who claim to know you be lovers of the TRUTH and 1Corinthians 4:6 [...] not go beyond what is written." We are yours. 

1Corinthians 4:7 "For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?"

♥ CheChe ♥

P.S. Sorry for the late night I make no sense really posts these last two days. I haven't had much time during the day to write. I have a wedding I get to attend tomorrow at 3 and am soooo excited :). I pray God blesses you no matter how much you doubt He can. I pray that if you don't know Jesus you would encounter Him. I pray for an experience like no other and for Christ, God, The messiah to show you REAL LOVE. Once you have tasted Christ life becomes full and beautiful. I love you God.

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Rant of Love ♥

The children, I'm sorry. Students! :) The students in my English class are pushing my unholy buttons :(. I haven't had any trials thus far in my walk with Jesus towards the students in my classes. Maybe with the curriculum and the teachers beliefs but never felt such hostility from my peers. Long story short my group was disregarded and the rest of the class teamed up to share answers for the quiz (each group made the quiz so everyone combined had the answers). I think I was extremely hurt and regressed back into the WHEN CHE IS HURT CHE SHOWS ANGER AND STRENGTH. Rather than praying about it I gave in. I even said some smart remarks about conspirators. The funny and ironic thing was before the quiz everyone wanted OUR groups answers. As if our groups answers were the only ones they DID NOT KNOW? So obvious right?

Anyways My point for even addressing this in my blog is I am faulty. I am imperfect. I am sadly easily angered in MANY areas of my life still. And God has a reason for revealing this to me. A part of me feels I should go in with a clean slate mentally and be friendly to my peers but another part would rather live the rest of the semester staying away from all of them and focusing on my studies. I think this goes back to the NAZI childhood of being ACCEPTED or NOT ACCEPTED amongst peers. Being the only black girl (well, there were 3 of us at one point) in a all Mexican elementary school and neighborhood I had MANY lessons on how different I was. I learned at an early age that others can choose not to like you, and even make fun of you and showing weakness only fuels them. So I put on my tough mask and chose to beat others to making fun of myself as well as Being AGGRESSIVE so that others could not have a chance to intimidate me in any form.

That little Che must really be angry still because I can feel those same emotions coming up and it hurts and sucks. I just want to be able to love ALL of them like Jesus but instead I'm praying not to tell them all off and use big words and make them feel dumber than me. Yeah, this is the mind of your Christian friend Che. She isn't that cute sometimes is she? She also weirdly talks in third person and types it as well :). FUN FACT FOR YOU!

I really could use prayer over this. It seems small but it is eating me up and causing me to really feel horrible. I know I am not condemned but these thoughts and plots eat away at a persons spirit. I need the strength of Christ for this remaining semester and I really just want to love these little children.

"FORGIVE THEM FOR THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO". -Jesus on the cross after being tortured, beaten and given the death of a sinner which he was the exact opposite of.

Jesus said those words about me and you. He said those words with pure love and compassion for his murderers and all of mankind! Yet I hold a grudge against my neighbor for not liking me and being a little childishly mean??  Ughh.. I want to be like Jesus. And everyday I seem to realize just how much I need him in order to even resemble a fraction of who he was and is and is to come.

God help me please. I want to love as you do. Take this burden from me! I love you and I ask for your forgiveness once again.. Amen

Thanks for listening! anyone else gone through something similiar??

♥

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Vegan Apple pie and 1st time TICKET ♥

Just a little bit of random stream of consciousness. Please do not judge. I feel like releasing :).

Two days ago at approximately 820am I chose to drive in the carpool lane and as a result I was pulled over.

Yes, I ignored the HOLY SPIRIT screaming in my head like a gentle father about to watch his child fall off their bike. I told GOD to please be quiet. I need to get to work on time. Just this once I need to break the law, okay? 2  minutes later the SPIRIT quieted and asked me "why do you disobey"? I passed a highway patrol man and before he saw me I knew I was receiving my first ticket.

I am such a brat y'all. I thought I would tell GOD to be quiet? Seriously. I feared being late to work and getting written up by my boss more than JESUS CHRIST!? AM I CRAZY? Yes. But am I that crazy?? No! I am a stupid, sinful little child. I have definitely learned my lesson. God does not like to see us putting ANYTHING before him. He is quick to remind us that our lives lay in his hands not in our sight or own strength. I know these things. Knowing is nothing without faith and OBEDIENCE.

Today I saw _______ for the first time in a while. The last time was when we met for coffee. God, thank you so much for giving _______ a caring heart. There are so many out there who would not use their TRIPLE A to help their ex-girlfriend that broke up with them have her car towed. I really, really am so in love with the heart that  _______ has. When we talked today I, of course, was distant and kept it surface deep. I feel sometimes when I talk to _______ about what is important to me there often isn't much of an active response. That was something I often felt in our relationship. So, instead of being rude and getting upset, I listened to _______ talk and made responses and kept it friendly. _______ hardly noticed. A part of me wanted to let _______ know, "in the future, a girl wants to know she is being heard. Not just acknowledged in the fact that she did speak." But I felt that I should just keep my mouth tight on the topic.

I found myself looking into _______ amazing, blue eyes. Only, those blue diamonds were exactly that. Nice looking eyes. I didn't feel the urge to hug _______. I didn't desire _______ hand on mind. I felt a bit uncomfortable in the car that once was as comfortable as driving in my car. Things have changed. I am extremely thankful for this realization. I am and have moved on. Wow. Isn't that scary? That feeling of knowing that you are actually never going to be with that person again. That feeling of satisfaction in your heart-breaking choice? God is so great, and swift to heal. It really has not been that long since the cut-off took place. I could be in a much worst place today which is how I know that the GOD I serve is faithful and real.

There's a Christian Club on campus :). Not affiliated with the "other" Christian Club either. I am excited to join :). They meet the days that I am on campus. I talked to some of the girls and it felt really nice. Will whoever you are that is reading be praying for this. Since attending the "other" Christian Clubs church, I am very apprehensive about new CHRISTIAN churches, groups or anything with a Christian title. I am quick to judge and it is something I struggle with and until today had not prayed too much on. After speaking to the girls REVELATION and the letters to the new Churches was brought up. I thought of how GOD had something to say to all of the Churches. None of them were perfect. It was like a piece of beef in marinade and at the end of my math class it had been roasted to perfection. I immediately knew what God was telling me. ALL FALL SHORT! Unless a group is completely blaspheming God and HIS word I have no right to judge. I can differ, I can choose to stay away, but I have NO RIGHT as a SINNER SAVED BY GRACE to judge.

This is something that really changed the rest of the day. I feel how we are spiritually, leaks into the rest of our lives, sometimes. If I am always looking for faults in other believers or waiting to hear something that I do not agree with I will definitely be doing the same in the world with co-workers, clients, classmates...etc. I need to focus PURELY ON MY WALK WITH CHRIST. He will direct me. My job is to stay close and lean not on my own understanding. If I am confused then I need to ask him for help and he will speak to me like always. Whether it be through my faithful, amazing and extremely intelligent Grandmother who serves Jesus Christ or a stranger in a coffee shop or a thought unlike my own. HE will always deliver when it brings him glory.

a nice fat slice for the girl who drove illegally. Seriously, I really didn't deserve this pie. Thank you Madre :).

I had apple pie TUESDAY. I think my mom saw how upset and distraught I was over the TICKET I received. She allowed me to go get my favorite VEGAN APPLE PIE from WHOLE FOODS MARKET in her car and with her own money. My mom really is amazing. I know we never see our Mothers as perfect 24/7. I just think of how much weight she carries on her shoulders with raising me and my siblings and the roof she has provided on her own for so many years and I can't help but think how strong she is. I love her dearly and if she were to be taken from me I would not know what to do... Apple pies have always been my favorite desert and pastime dish. However, this apple pie is made with pure joy and happiness baked right inside. It is vegan and taste more delicious than the best non-vegan apple pies out there. And I have definitely tasted them all. I had a slice last night and boy did it lift my sore spirits.

oh, I got my first item for fall :). The scarf not the pie. I love it and I of course spent less than 5 bucks for it.

I decided to eat a slice before taking the picture :). So delicious!!

 

The pie was a hit at a potluck I went to as well. Most of the guys and girls there were not into anything vegan and had I told them before would have been apprehensive. But I brought two of these 7dollar goodies and everyone was RAVING over them. One guy made a joke after I said they were vegan "Don't force your beliefs on me." I thought that was funny. Vegan and Vegetarianism for many can be a sort of religion. Where all of a sudden everything under and about those categories is an idol. I see nothing wrong with this way of  living and eating, although for me personally, having suffered from an eating disorder I can't just jump into restrictive lifestyles with food. It is something I must pray on and make sure I am putting GOD first. I went vegan for about a month and a half and became a bit anxious and stressed over it. I had to stop and realize that God will always give you peace when you are in his will. I was on a very nice looking DIET. lol And diets are never permanent. LIFE CHANGES ARE!

anyways, I rambled and had an amazing time doing so! Please know that you are loved!! I think that simple truth can make such a difference in a woman or mans life. I know it did for me. I have not been the same since :).

ENJOY YOUR THIRSTY THURSDAY! 

LET THE LORD QUENCH YOUR THIRST!

♥cheche

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BLOG GIVEAWAY & FAITH IN HIS PROMISES~

Initially I didn't have anything particular to blog about today. I am at school and stressed out and in need of a massage and CHURCH tonight.

Sadly both are looking very dim. Lord, I desperately need my car fixed. At least where I could go to CHURCH services independently and not have to rely on blessings sent as friends and my mom. LoL. I am really blessed and have not really had to suffer because of all the amazing GODLY women the Lord has put in my life and their services of taking me home or picking me up :). But unfortunately I am getting to the point where pride REALLY does not want to ask anyone, as well as my mother, for rides anymore. I just feel like I am overstaying my welcome minus the living at someones home part.

School is stressful y'all. I know that GOD has kept me here so that I am prepared for what he has in store. I truly believe that. But I *CHETREANNA WHITE* am my worst academic enemy. My English teacher gave me more than the enough time to complete this ANALYTICAL MAP based off the 88 page reading. However, one must start and finish the 88 page reading in order to carry out the task and accomplish anything. UGHHH. I was a bum and chose to NOT get started on this task until yesterday. The time I devoted did not SUFFICE because the reading is not just some straight through read. It is a very complex dialogue of essays that you should allow a few days to read and to absorb and perhaps have a dictionary on hand for words, that may arise, that you are unfamiliar with. I know I have nobody to blame here but myself which really angers me. My problem is I want to be the best at everything I set out to do, yet, I mess up and do stupid, young, immature things like skipping/postponing assignments and I am placed in this overwhelming, insecure and anxious state of mind on campus.  I jut want to go back in time (impossible I know!) and borrow the money to BUY my book so that I could start the assignment the day of. Rather than being broke, not asking my mom for the money (pride) and waiting 4days until my paycheck to purchase it and adding another 3days of not reading it to that.
PHEW. I feel a little bit better getting that demon off my back but the anxiety will probably not fade until I attend class.

I am pretty sure I will not be able to make it up but nonetheless I know that the only thing I can do is KEEP IT MOVING! Go to the class empty handed and take this as a learning opportunity to do all the assigned work on time. I can not afford to mess this up. Seriously. I get financial aid and my g.p.a is something that I have worked hard to get to . I only want to raise it not LOWER it and anything lower than a B. ughhh. Let us just not think about it okay. ha ha  THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD! And what a faithful and trusting shepherd he is. IT is us dumb, wandering sheep that have the issues. Goodness. I just gotta keep on moving and stay on the path. This is not a life or death situation Che. Calm down. ahhhh much better. Thank God for this gift of writing!


BLOG GIVEAWAY!!!

Although I am extremely competitive when it is something I WANT I must share this amazing news. A favorite blogger of mine is having a giveaway on her page!! The giveaway has probably got to be one of the most exciting ones I have had a chance to hear about :).

Go Check out Kelly Ann s blog to learn more about the giveaway at  TAYLOR HOUSE run by the lovely CHAUCEE !! I really feel alot better talking about something that excites me :).


Yes, the day has a lot more hope now that I am writing. JEREMIAH 29:11. This is the verse I shared with my cousin a week or so back. It helped her and seeing in how my birthday is SEPTEMBER 20th, my dear cousin bought me a journal after she saw me complaining about how I didn't have too many pages left in the one I am using. *about 2 weeks at the most left of space* So she bought me a new black leather journal *LOVE YOU SHARA!!* And a gift card to Ross :). As well as an amazing CHRISTIAN birthday card. I read it and it was adorable and then she says did you see the bottom left. Plastered at the bottom of the card was JEREMIAH 29:11!! She didn't realize until after she had already purchased it that it was there. Isn't our God an amazing and never dull God?  That verse is popping up for a reason! He is reminding me of his unwavering promise! Set in stone just for me and anyone else who calls upon the name of Jesus and believes.
Thank you Lord for reminding me :)!


Well I have a class to go to. Thank you all for listening! go join the giveaway!! Chaucee is a sweetie and I would love nothing more than to hear she is ALL SOLD out of cowls :).


Blessing and peace your way this MONDAY!


♥ cheche

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