I appreciate you Bloggers ♥

Can I just say gals.. How ridiculously EASY it is to get caught up amongst each other.
We just naturally love talking about our flaws and lingering and dissecting them.
I have tried to avoid discussing myself negatively but I am so easily swayed in this area.
I find myself dreaming of going on WEIGHTWATCHERS... Talking to a co-worker about whose butt is bigger?
I mean seriously!! How unattractive, am I right?
And worst of all my Messiah, Jesus, GOD, our SAVIOR is nowhere to be seen or heard of in these moments.
I simply give in to the flesh and talk "FAT" with whomever is willing to humor me with their own sad story.
Yes. I am once again complaining and whining but you know what?
THAT IS WHY I LOVE HAVING A BLOG!!!
The fact that you beautiful and intelligent (AND PRETTY DARN CREATIVE IF I DO SAY SO MYSELF) women want to take a moment out of your day to look into my little corner and nook of the internet world and read my craziness is only a blessing that reflects Gods grace because I certainly can't find any reason why y'all precious bunch of ladies would follow me. I sometimes wonder if I would follow me? You know... In an objective sort of way.

Anywho, WHEW!!! Thank the LORD that I have an outlet. THANK THE LORD that yesterday has passed and tomorrow has come because HE HAS PLANS for me today. THANK THE LORD that I can come online and be edified, encouraged and truly entertained by women taking time out of their lives to let others in. You gals really bless those who walk on in to your little space along the way. You guys are amazing and I honestly enjoy coming home to my blog. As well as, my bible, my books, my bed...

I just truly appreciate having a home to come to at the end of these long days. I love my life right now. I don't know what the LORD is doing and what HE has planned or purposed out of all of this but I pray that I would be strong and that I would be made strong in Him and not in myself. I really love nights like these. Nights where I can only believe because nothing really makes much sense. Bricks are definitely being layed but I have no idea what God is building in my life.

Can I be a girl for a moment??

I am just going to keep it real.

I would love to be married soon...  Someday...
I would love to have a godly man to hold hands with.
To tell about my day.
I would love to have him look into my eyes and ask me to pray.

Yeah, I am quite the sap.
And yes I just said "to hold hands with".
I think holding hands is the most intimate thing... It just makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

Oh. But guess what.
God wants the same thing from me!! Oh wow. I only just thought of this.
But the desires I am honestly sharing with you guys reflect the Lords love for me.
He wants to be married. To be united in one with me.
He wants to hold my hand.
He wants me to tell Him about my day...
And He wants me to look to Him and pray... more each day.


How great is our God...?


I Love You Lord.
Your will and your ways are perfect.
Forgive me for wanting to jump ahead of you so often.
Thank you for this day Lord.




♥CheChe

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::..First Corinthian Reminder..::[ ♥]

1Corinthians 15: 58 "Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain."

I know that God has given me the work and labor that I have in my life for a reason. And It is fully to give it all to Him. It isn't about how much I can work or put MYSELF into it. It is about responding to His call and fully giving myself to working for Him and not focusing on man and pleasing man. Because quite honestly, mankind would rather I lie, cheat and steal to get the sales or produce anything good. But God has it all under control.

Yesterday I didn't get ONE sale in my 5 hour shift. I was content though. I had already told God, you know what, it doesn't matter. You have given me this job and despite the dry floor and the fact that I haven't made any bonus money today you have it under control and just as Abraham knew God would provide the sacrifice I knew God would and will always provide whatever I need. So I began to fix the store and get it ready for closing.

In walks a beautiful, blonde, curious and rather rushed. I ask her from afar how she is and if she needed anything special. About 40 minutes later she is walking out with three pants, 5 tops, 3 jackets, two skirts, and 4 camisole tanks. I made not just a sale but a sale that provided a little extra cash on top of my hourly and allowed my to really earn my sale. My manager of course wanted to hit our daily GOAL and said "MAKE HER SPEND LOTS OF MONEY! You can do it." But all I really did was show her everything in the store and ask her if she liked it and slowly I began to see her taste and only offer her tops and pants that would accentuate her figure in the way that she preferred. I love everything in our store and I love helping woman feel beautiful and confident when they leave. God provided that sale. She could have hated everything she tried on and disliked my helping hand like many women that day seemed to earlier in my shift.

The Lord is all knowing and SUFFICIENT. I don't need to offer myself to the work of men. I need only offer myself fully to the work of the LORD and labor not in the vanity of this world but in Him. I know He has it all worked out. And I know this verse was just a reminder that despite these two jobs I am working I WORK FOR GOD. And He is the best employer and provider I could ever have the privilege of seeking to serve and live for.

God Bless you this Sunday ladies :).

♥CheChe

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WHO HAS A SECOND JOB? ♥

I got a second job... THAT IS WHO SILLY :)~!!!!
WHITEHOUSE|BLACKMARKET hired me today. I applied at FOREVER 21 and they loved me as well. I just don't know where I am supposed to be :/. Forever didn't make a deal immediately but they gave me a second interview for HEAD CASHIER and also didn't dispute the starting salary I asked about which would be a great addition to my life :). LoL
The pay is A LOT less at WHITEHOUSE|BLACKMARKET but the product is a lot better as well as the energy and the welcome you receive. I ended up just talking with the manager and telling her my goals. How I struggled with an eating disorder, how I have a passion to see other women come to love themselves and be freed of the bondage of an eating disorder and self-hate.

So, I risk losing out on a better pay at a store that I would probably buy clothes at as a hobby because of how affordable and cute SOME (too trendy for me in general but I love the few staples that they often carry) of them are. OR I step out in complete unknowing faith and take the fact that I got hired on spot, that the manager was a woman who truly seemed to love and value her employees and a store that sells a much more timeless and preferable product, as well as caters to a clientele of serious and older buyers. Therefore I wouldn't have to tolerate too much madness (older buyers CAN be just as bad but the average is a lot differen't) Oh, and did I mention it is located in the loveliest part of SUNNY California.

When the LORD DELIVERS does HE not DELIVER?

I find it quite Godlike that I have gone from desperately wanting God to give me a new second job to deliberating between two jobs after one day of walking around Fashion Island. GODLIKE because this last paycheck was the FIRST paycheck that I TITHED my finances to the LORD.

So, I'm sure God knows what He is doing. I just really don't know what He wants me to do... :)


♥cheche

OH... Just some pictures that made me smile :)

Sprinkles is sooo close to my new job..

I work at the bank and customers will let you know if your nails don't look good. So anytime I see nice nails I get really happy in a weird way that I never used to. THESE EXCITE ME!! lol

So, I kinda am banking my husband will be my own personal CHRIS HEMSWORTH. He has it all, height, blue eyes, chiseled jaw line, ACCENT (a must right? or no...) which means He isn't American. PLUS HE HAS BLUE EYES!!!

Yeah. I dunno. I haven't had a celeb crush this bad since PAUL WALKER. Which brings me to my second reason why my future hubby will resemble Chris Hemsworth in some way. Chris Hemsworth RESEMBLES PAUL WALKER. It is all one big chain of look-a-likes. Has to be God showing me an image of my hubby right?... Or no.

speaks quite loudly.

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Where Is Everyone [♥] ?

 (today was weird. I enjoyed the weather and ran all my errands but I just felt like where is everyone? I love being alone but today had an odd edge to the missing people. I don't know who was missing exactly but the day felt just...empty. People wise. Just a thought.)

Tomorrow I have a wedding! Yay. That will be two Saturdays in a row that I have attended a wedding. It is only so amazing because I remember 2 1/2 years ago praying to be able to witness a wedding ceremony. All of a sudden I remember just being in love with the idea of LOVE. TRUE LOVE. Of a man actually respecting and loving a woman enough to marry her and to promise to be faithful. I really wanted to be able to witness it because I had never really experienced that before in life...But I had began to believe in it. 

Isn't it funny how we just start changing preference wise? One day I'm an atheist the next I'm crying out to God. One day I love twix bars, the next day I'm despising them... So interesting how God allows us to be in this constant state of change but He is everlasting and never changing. Love it.

Today I thought I'd be bold and show you a daily outfit. I am by no means a fashion, flashy girl. I really love the idea of fashion more just because it doesn't always look quite the same on me. LoL.

do you like my zoolander face. Seriously though..,? I have braces so my smile isn't quite... "mature".

I love these glasses. They are my everyday accessory of choice. They aren't meant to make me look stunning but since I was a little girl I've wanted glasses and 4 years ago it became possible. however, that is a post for a later time.

this has become one of my go-to outfits recently. Hides the gut and is semi-flattering to the curves :).

are you enjoying seeing my outfit in creepy, chopped up photo bits?

alright. last close up. Does anyone else ever have photo shoots in their car like a dork... or am I the only cool one left? 

SO. That is my little wannabe outfit thingy post. I know it ain't much but it felt good to put aside my fear and let y'all see me. Today I got 180 dollars in my paycheck. Being sick a week or two ago I missed two days of work and yeah. Definitely affected my paycheck. So I bought 50 dollars worth of groceries I'm praying will last until next paycheck and filled up my tank. So here I am. A broke child as always. But you know what. Greater is He who is in me. I don't really need much. I might want a lot but I don't need any of it really. A meal or two a day, my bible, gas in my tank to do errands and go to work. I am so blessed to not have to pay rent. To have food to eat. And to have access to water FOR FREE. In some countries the things I have are rare and often never even obtained. So today I am blessed that I got 180 dollars :). I really am. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME. And I know His plans for me are greater than the ones for myself.



HAVE AN AMAZING SATURDAY. I probably won't have time to do a post tomorrow since I'll be grooving and moving at Karlas wedding. Oh yeah. That is her name. KARLA. She is a beautiful sister of mine and I get to watch her become MRS. VINCENTE :). HEYYY.


♥ CHECHE ♥

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 Romans 15:7 "Therefore receive one another, just as Christ also received us, to the glory of God"

I received my passport in the mail!!! :)
I have never traveled anywhere outside of the states and I am so excited to have the window of opportunity to do so over the next 10 years through this lovely passport. I know, I'm quite the dorkling for wanting to do nothing but talk about my passport, but it just makes AFRICA so much closer and more tangible :).

I am calling Kaiser today to set up the appointment to get all of my disease control shots for the trip. Praying that my co-pay covers them because that is about 200$ dollars that I just might not ever have.

I was reading in ROMANS this morning and something really stood out to me. THE verse above really puts into perspective the idea of loving and how it should look on earth. We were loved in our wretched and defiant states by God before we came to know him yet, we struggle with loving those who live in sin and who curse God. Yet, if we are to take this scripture seriously and look at how GOD received us and the state we were in, well it really defeats that judgment your harnessing towards another member of the body of Christ for their imperfections. Or against your neighbor who isn't living for God. Or your co-worker who is stooped in all types of debauchery. It is the love of Christ that surpasses our human judgment. It is the love of Christ that causes us to receive people from all different walks of life and to remember the distance we fell before accepting Christ into our lives. I felt the sting of conviction as I read that verse. I also felt the love of GOD opening my eyes and the holy spirit giving me the wisdom to understand just how powerful it is to be Christ-like and Christ-centered in our thoughts towards others. It is not our job to judge or condemn. That day is coming but through our love we may be used by God to win someone over to the kingdom. Isn't that much better than looking down at the homosexual, drug addict, alcoholic, prostitute, murderer, adulterous people you turn your pretty little Christian nose up at so often? I think so. And boy does it allow complete room for the spirit to work because it is COMPLETELY not of you to show that LOVE.

I am so excited for AFRICA. All I think about is the topic these days. I am debating on posting my support letter on here or not. I am so scared to send them out. Asking for money or financial help is something that I just have never enjoyed. I can ask my mom at times but I still struggle with asking her because it is admitting that you can't do it. You can't pay the bill, you have no GAS (again...ugh), you couldn't afford to buy groceries with the petty check you received...etc. Pride really tries to mask itself as being independent but I am beginning to recognize that GOD knows how weak and pathetic and broke I am so what is the point of hiding it from my family and friends? haha

K. Well I will leave you with a funny picture. I thought it was funny at least when I took it.
Actually I'll leave you with TWO! Yeah. I'm busting out all the deals today. Two pictures of me being silly in one post... Talk about humbling right? hahah

LOVE YOU BLOGSTERS!


♥ Chetreanna ♥

this is what Church Girls do when You put a camera in their face and they are running off of a sugar induced high. ♥

watch your back...

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No me gusta :( ♥

So I have a burn or rash on my upper lip and under my chin. And it seriously burns like no other! I am in such discomfort and pain and the hypochondriac that is alive in my really feels like I have some type of flesh eating disease or std or chemical burn just because it hurts sooo bad. My mom said it looks like an allergic reaction to something I ate. I though it was a sunburn because it looks and feels exactly like a sunburn I previously had. Btw I think it is impossible that it is an STD but prior to finding GOD I was sexually active with my only ex-boyfriend (WHO I HAD TESTED BECAUSE I AM A HYPOCHONDRIACISH TYPE OF WOMAN. PRAISE GOD) SO just in case anyone was wondering that is the LITTLE piece that fuels the STD fire. Not to mention that I have been tested SINCE that past mistake and yeah. Why am I talking about STDS oh my goodness...

Anywho. Pray for me if you can. I believe in the power of prayer so I ask a lot. But tomorrow I leave for the WHEN WOMEN LEAD CONFERENCE and I am so scared of just not being able to enjoy it because of this pain. WOooo.. The Lord has got this. I know. So I will pray and calm down. I just want to wake up free of the pain. I don't even care about the rash, just the pain Lord. You can take away my mouth and my face but please LORD deliver me from this pain.

I'm heading to bed now and I still have yet to pack but I just so happen to be the best LAST minute packer in town ;).

Thank you God for another day. And Thank you for showing me in REVELATION today just how close we are to your return and to continue to pray for the LOST that they might not be deceived by this crazy "BEAST" that is seeking to make peace and lure people away from your truth with false religion, doctrine and promises. Oh LORD, raise us up into stronger women of FAITH that we ourselves may not be deceived and stand firm in our Love for you in all areas. May we not allow compromising lifestyles to be the reason we are left behind or standing outside your gates. I love you GOD.

♥ Have a Great Weekend Loves!! ♥

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What a DAY!

Sadly I did not have the time to participate in MEGS MINGLE MONDAY YET! I still have until MIDNIGHT but I feel with work and school work that may not be accomplished.. Nonetheless I took a peek and let me just tell y'all that there is a large group of women over there who are ready to mingle and see your blog and maybe you will even gain some new willing and joyful followers as well. After all, we are here to write and share ourselves with the world through our blogs not to write and get the most followers or anything right?? ;). lol The Lord know I have pouted many a time at my lack thereof in all areas of my life so trust me, the blog has undergone unnecessary scrutiny from myself in that area. In the end God showed me that I am doing something that really brings me comfort and peace and most importantly it gives HIM all the glory and to that I can not allow my own pride and greed to get in the way. 

Today was amazing everyone. I know I have been quite the complainer or at least I have felt that way but God has his hand so deeply in our lives that I think sometimes we forget until we are literally watching him carry out his own will above ours. 

My English class was canceled today as a start. Yes, that was just a shock all in its own because English teachers do not play games and they are there every class on time ready to get your essays and look at your crookedly if you have no work to turn in. This was a BLESSING because I was able to see a girlfriend of mine whom I have recently began to see less of. Our hangout was definitely a divine appointment and no coincidence because from that I was really able to see just how weak I am in sharing my faith and telling other people what I am and am not comfortable with and WHY. The why being my Lord and Savior who has made me a new creation and that I literally can not stomach certain types of language or conversations anymore. Yet, I found myself unable to express this with a close friend and a young girl we had met. Instead I laughed uncomfortably not wanting to make them uncomfortable and did my "best" to not add anything that would leave me convicted or feeling apart of it.

Mission failed. Although I didn't necessarily sin I definitely was being taught a completely different lesson in obedience and speaking up in my FAITH. I know there is no condemnation but I was very disturbed by this revelation of self. Next month will be a year of me walking with Christ and I feel that I should be growing in my faith publicly and speaking out against things when called to, in the name of Jesus. I was definitely a weak type of Peter today denying my Lord for my own safety and comfort. Oh Lord, forgive me. I need the strength to speak out and up for your namesakes. 

The BLESSING that really came from this was my irrational decision to call up a sister who is becoming quite the little prayer warrior ;). I let her know I wanted to hang out and pray and we ended up talking and deciding to go get food after and pray before dinner instead of in my car on an empty tummy. Somehow within 5 minutes we decided to drive to our sisters house around the corner to pick her up (not having asked her yet) and get food and pray together. She claimed she looked a mess and had already eaten as well so we ended up in her house discussing various struggles in our walks and just opening up about love, life and what Christ is doing in our lives.

This was not on my menu for the evening but then this sister (and myself prior) actually felt lead to open up and for us to pray over anything we were allowing ourselves to hold on to because forgetting that it is all in our Lords hands to begin with tends to be something we all struggle with in different areas. The fact that we think we are holding on  to these hindrances as if any of them belong to us is the problem because we don't have the faith to willingly allow Christ to take it. We are not in control at all and God continually is reminding us through the sin or things we hold on to. Slowly he asks us to surrender and we are either caught off guard or our whole worlds are shaken because we can not imagine a life without our hands gripping this thing in our lives we are desperately trying to keep.

Something I particularly felt lead to share that I don't really surrender to God is my sexual abuse/molestation/attempted rape/rape? from my childhood. I always have felt alone about this because the one time I opened up to my ______ I was told I was a liar. It was the hardest thing I have ever swallowed. I was in 5th grade and I learned a false truth that night. That nobody could be trusted in this world. So much has came from that one night and the sexual issue alone that a lot of my testimony ultimately is linked back to that night. Those years of feeling so disgusting for no reason at all. False guilt and shame were my truths and boy does Satan love using these in the lives of women! We throw away our worth and accept these instead and the affect they can have are ones that usually lead to death, whether spiritually or physically. I was dead you guys for so long and the love of Christ woke me up. Just like the girl in Mark? When Jesus says she is only sleeping and then tells her "talitha* (young girl) awake!". And she awakes from what was surely her death bed. Oh I get chills just typing it. (to sleepy to look it up sorry!! it is either mark or luke??)

Tonight I learned that I have amazing sisters in my life who truly love our God. They are young women like me but when I sat in that living room the wisdom and love was nothing less than that of true disciples with the desire of God in their hearts. 

• I learned that I need to make an effort to pray for the sin that God has forgiven me of because I really have not forgiven myself completely. I need to pray for my families salvation with more urgency. 
• I need to pray for the love of Christ to overflow from me so that I may truly carry out his will according to his plan.
• I need to take myself out of my life and ask WHAT DOES GOD WANT? more/always. 
• I need JESUS so much it would be sick of me to think any area of mylife is fine if it has not been surrendered completely to him.
• I am really ready for the Love God wants me to have with him and for the man he has pcreated with me in mind :). 
• That I am being healed day by day and he will finish this work he has began in my life as well as yours.

Do not lose hope because you are loved by HIM, God would not have brought you to his feet without a plan and a purpose. He will relieve you of these things but he desires to hear us ask and rely on him for everything first! So be still and seek his face above all and he will heal you, guide you and love you the way only he knows how. God bless the Word of God and the faithful children whom have heard his call and obeyed. I am so blessed to be alive and able to appreciate all that he is tonight.. May God continue to reveal himself in our lives and to guide us! More of him and less of me is my overall prayer and lesson tonight ladies and gents. God bless you and keep you and be mindful you never know when God will have you be a blessing in the lives of others!!

♥cheche

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