What is it about the lovely season of SUMMER that seems to make the male species even MORE aware to us women?
Is it the heat...?
The more readily available and convenient beach options?
I just don't know.
I ask this more from a genuine place of interest than anything.
It seems everyone is dating and pairing off for summer wherever I turn. And, of course, I am single.
But recently I have felt like singleness is something to truly enjoy and rest in.
....
I know right?
Summer for me conjures up pictures of the GYM and hiking. Stuff I really need to.
Since we are on the topic of men I thought I'd update the few ladies who can remember...
A few posts back I mentioned having a man who thought I was attractive look me in the eyes.
YES THAT POST!
NOW your with me...
shame on you.
Well, it turns out that situation has become a very complicated and confusing one.
We just have a weird relationship.
THINGS ARE PERFECTLY FINE THAT WAY THOUGH.
It is one of those just leave things the way they are and continue to have amazing times together kinds of deals.
I don't think the attraction is from a place of interest and I am almost 100% sure this guy is strictly in my life as a friend and encouragement.
But I just wanted to let those of you who sent me messages wanting to know more an update because that is just what we do in blogworld.
WE UPDATE.
ha ha
I must admit though. Now that I know he isn't interested in that way I have been kind of thinking he is attractive but at the same time HE ISN'T??
Oh the complicated joys of being a woman.
MY BUTT. NEEDS. THE. GYM. BADLY.
I tried on clothes at my clothing store today and was so sad when it came to trying on bottoms.
I've gone up almost 4 sizes over the last 2 years.
I was looking at my old sized pants and wondering how in the world I ever fit in them.
My butt is HUGE.
I wish I had a healthy addiction to working out.
AND EATING LESS.
Just keeping it real.
In other news today I missed my UGANDA GIRLS more than ever.
I just really miss the sincere and genuine fellowship we could have.
I never thought I'd end up appreciating them more as sisters through this trip but I do.
Today I found myself thinking of B.
She is the funniest girl.
She is a lot like me and doesn't hold back what she is thinking. And she really speaks truth when the truth is being avoided or pushed to the side.
I miss getting food with her and laughing until I cry.
I miss how nothing we ever talked about seemed mundane or pointless.
I miss it all.
God gives us the people that He knows will leave an imprint on our hearts in these walks of ours. And I recognize just how perfect His timing and ways are in bringing people together.
AND No matter what B is always down to throw down and pray over everything we talked about.
My little prayer warrior.
I really, really miss that girl.
I miss them all!
I miss their honesty.
I miss their opinions and thoughts.
I feel like the LORD blessed each one of those ladies with such strength.
Ugh.
Now I am just sounding a bit needy and sad. So I'll stop. ha ha
My FRIDAY was pretty nice.
I was reading my bible at sushi and realized that 2Corinthians is an amazing book!!! I love my bible. But Chapter 12 of 2CORINTHIANS was just perfectly in alignment with what I am going through. Chapter 12 was on fire to put it simply. I forget what Paul writes about exactly in that chapter. He speaks of going into Heaven either in the body or out of the body. And how He could (like the false apostles the CORINTHIANS were turning to) boast in the things he heard and saw there but he doesn't. Because that just isn't how humble Paul rolls. But SPECIFICALLY I remember the part where he tells the church of Corinth that when he is weak it is then that He is strong. It ministered to me and right on the spot I felt the Lord telling me to apologize to the friend I had the fallout with. "You may never be friends again and you don't have to be. But apologize... Say your sorry...."
And so I did.
And to my surprise I got an immediate response back saying
"IM SORRY TOO!"
The Lord really knows what He is doing.
I had no idea what would come from it and I sort of just acted on order but as I typed the message I felt in my heart that saying sorry was what I needed to do.
And now I still have a friend.
And who knows if we will hang out like we once did or if things will go back to being exactly how they were.
But I have such a clear conscience knowing that I did what the Lord asked and in return he mended the broken relationship.
I have some other things I want to talk about.
But this really isn't the place :/.
I will say this just because I don't really know how NOT to say what I want to say on here.
When you love someone.
And you care for them.
And they are a friend.
Treat them as you would want to be treated.
I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
Seek to make those around you that you love feel loved.
Sometimes we can forget what it was like in highschool I think...
But we do those SAME things that drove us crazy then.
Only we are the ones doing them to others this time around.
So here is some food for thought!
- If what your doing reminds you of high school stop and think why?
- If it brings up memories of united joy with friends and schoolmates then that is probably something you should continue to do.
- If it brings up memories of feeling insecure, out of the loop, sad, depressed or lonely...
THINK TWICE ABOUT WHAT YOUR DOING OR HOW YOU ARE ACTING :).
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P.S I'm Praying you all have an amazing SATURDAY. YAY for Saturday...
