This weekend I had the lovely privilege of attending my first ever WEDDING!
A dear sister of mine, Laura is now married to an amazing example of a godly man and they are probably in Hawaii as we speak enjoying the beginnings of their married life. It was such a blessing to laugh, eat, pray and dance the day/night away in celebration of a true holy matrimony. Everything from the wedding vows to the cake brought everyones focus back to the cross and what Jesus did in dieing and raising again for us crazy children of His. What an amazing testimony they share through their union as one.
The group of ladies I am going to Africa with this coming summer are ticketing by the end of this week! Once tickets are bought there is no turning back. I must tell you God really checked me yesterday and I started praying and calling out for His help because I am beginning to wonder if this trip is the one. If this is the trip that He desires me to go on for Him. I was just tripped up yesterday and it really left me wondering about my motives for going and wanting desperately to hear what exactly God has to say about it all. I want to go to Africa y'all. Seriously. Che. wants. to. go! I know God is calling, I know GOD will get me there and now I am stuck in intense prayer over whether or not He wants me on this trip.
I don't have the money. I haven't been capable of contributing much of anything at all to the trip. I haven't been capable of saving like all of the other girls. I am just really starting to wonder how I could be called to go when I am so incapable financially.
This whole time I have known that in the area of Africa we are staying we are expected to eat all of our food. They literally watch you and make sure you finish your plate and it is considered rude to not finish your food. I have known this and known GOD would give me the strength to get through it but I have also battled with wondering how crazy I could go being stuffed and feeling fat. I know it is a vain thought but it is something my flesh desperately tries to believe is enough to not be capable of lasting in Africa.
I'm going to just stop rambling and ask for you guys, once again to PRAY, for God to make His ways known and clear because I truthfully do not want to be outside of His will and in the process hinder these girls from doing the Lords work to the fullest. I know that I truly want this trip to be the trip and I believe that God has brought me this far to break me of the things that I may have overlooked out of pride in the beginning. I know God is with me in this all and I have faith that no matter how impossible or inadequate of a servant I may be He will receive all glory either way. Pray for wisdom and for His voice to be made known in all of this.
I have another wedding this Saturday and I may be attending alone. Which would be awkward but I wouldn't miss it for the world. I also have one day of work, which is tomorrow, and then I'm getting paid to not work for the rest of the week. VACATION time :). Lol. More like, do all of the stuff you never have time to do time :).
Thank you for making it this far in the bleh post. I know you are all confused and praying for me. ha ha. Trust me I need it.
♥ Chetreanna ♥
