Last Year recap ♥

2012 in short was a year of suffering, trials, lessons and pain.

And boy would I have not had it any other way now that I am on the other side.

God had a crazy work in store for me and I will proceed to not pour out my heart but just graph it in bullet points. 

Here goes nothing.

• Walked into 2012 distracted and heavy hearted
• Lost my job at Wells Fargo January 21st
• Went 3 months with no money and still did everything I needed to. (GRACE!)
• Got a dream job doing what I prayed for 3 years to get if I ever left the bank.
• Went from making a good chunk of money to getting a dream job that paid a chunk less.
• Broke down and cried for the first 9 months of the year almost 3 nights out of the week consecutively over matters of the heart.
• Got rid of my fro and started rocking braids
• Struggled with accepting my desires were not going to be fulfilled and began to ask why in my heart.
• Grew immensely into a woman who was broken and in need of being filled daily with His strength
• Got broken down some more and began seeking to actively engage in being filled by Him
• Got rid of braids and began sporting a weave
• Began to serve in ministry in a more involved and intense manner
• Experienced the craziest spiritual warfare of my walk as a Christian thus far
• Grew closer than ever to my sisters in Christ and made many new ones who the Lord used astronomically to pour out wisdom and offer prayer 
• Cut out my weave, cut my hair and began wearing it short and straight
• Witnessed the relationship of two brothers I'd been praying for happen and will be witnessing the marriage of one for sure this year I believe.
• Got my car towed
• Got pulled over with an expired license and drove away fine
• Almost got hit by cars multiple times and watched the Lord keep me safe
• Realized just how sinful I am even as a Christian and how wicked my heart can be

All that to say that this year was eventful and went by in the blink of an eye. I am so grateful to God for keeping me sane and in HIM through it all but honestly ladies, I would be such a liar if I didn't admit just wanting to run away from Him at times. I wanted to just get away from Him and the life that involved Him because at times the weight of the pain was unbearable. My heart was put through so much this year but the last months of 2012 I had such a change taking place within me that I couldn't say I regret any of it. God used every single little ounce of this year to begin a new work in me. NEW WINE SKINS... He needs it and I pray this year He would just fill me to the brim with His holy wine to pour out and love on His body with authentic selfless love. 

Thank you Lord for 2012 but I am so excited for what you are planning this year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR