Heart is full...

Yeah, there is a weird anticipation pumping through my veins these days. 

It is a blessing to be so far removed from past trials that I thought would never end or be resolved...

But, alas! God has brought me into this new season and at the beginning of this year my car was totaled.

It was immediately kicked off with a bang, and my prayer for this year was that I would be made to rejoice always and full of genuine joy for Christ.

Insert [asking for trials] at the end of that prayer and the whole car getting totaled thing makes perfect sense.

So, here I am.

I have no car.

I have no way of going to all the places I currently serve at or work.

Yet, I am 12 days into the new year since losing my car and I have not missed a thing, yet.

God is so faithful.

But back to my first sentence.

Something weird is taking place and tonight I just wanted to document to everyone that I am thoroughly aware that God is at work in my life and very sensitive to desires of my heart growing more pure but GROWING none the less.

I have no idea what that means or what He means to do through that but it is so exciting.

I am overwhelmed with excitement for what JESUS is doing in my life and where He is leading me and how He is choosing to answer prayers. 

God is good.

I want so desperately to just remain in His will and to not focus on what is happening but just on loving Him with all my heart at every moment. As of now, that is what I believe to be the will of God, I mean afterall, did He not make that His first and supreme commandment? I know that love for others can only come and be fulfilled through this first law.

But yeah, that is my little heart update.

I want more of Christ to be my sight and my vision and for His love and joy to overflow within my heart.

My heart is changing and I feel it being broken and shaped and molded and filled these days...It feels more active than ever.
It makes me want to cry quite frankly ...

Alright, that is the end of my little spiel. I can't wait to see more of what He is doing.