This Year ♥

In a nutshell, this year has been quite the growing pain...

We all love growing though, don't we?

Getting older, stronger, taller, maturing...
Growth, in most aspects, is something positive.

I find that to be even more true having made it halfway through this year with the Lord.

Despite how much I am just wanting to cry my eyes out right now...

Despite how frustrated I am about my body holding these tears back as if it is saving it all for one huge meltdown of a rainy day...

Despite how guarding and protecting my heart has left so many battle wounds this year...

Despite MYSELF...
The Lord is ever faithful.

Psalm 40:

4  Blessed is the man who makes
the Lord his trust,
who does not turn to the proud,
to those who go astray after a lie!

I know that I haven't been around much lately, and that is perfectly fine. 

In fact, it has only allowed me to appreciate what this blog was originally ever meant for.

A way of communicating what the Lord is doing in my life and what I'm going through as a young woman of faith.

And tonight I am so grateful and appreciative of this beautiful medium Christ has granted me.

My heart hurts so bad.

It isn't the same as when I broke up with my ex though.

It isn't quite the same...

That pain kept me from leaving my house or even changing my clothes.

I've come quite far!

This pain is like a loss.

I can't even find the words to describe it.

It is a pain that causes me to cling to the Lord and hurts me because I have no control and no possible understanding...

I want desperately right now to just be numb and not be a woman who feels so deeply but I know that is the same as saying I don't want to be the creation that I am.

I don't quite understand it all. I really don't. In fact, I feel like I am just falling down into this unknown path that aligns perfectly with Gods will and the fear is distracting me from how GOOD God's path really is...

Whatever may come I will trust the Lord.

Whatever may come I will trust the Lord.

♥CheChe