Oh Boy ♥

I have been completely missing in action.

How women manage to run a blog consistently and still have time to serve at church, work, take care of their kids, spend time with their husbands/boyfriends, and also get alone time in for themselves is a MYSTERY to me.

I have so much to say that I can't even say it.

God has been doing so much this year and month by month He just gets deeper and deeper.

I know so much more than I did a week ago, let alone a month ago, how much I need Jesus.

I just can't live this life apart from Him.

And my heart is just so deceitful and wicked and ready to make my life comfortable.

Or better yet, my heart is so willing to give me what I WANT rather than what I NEED.

God gives me what I need.

He gives me the kinda stuff that glorifies Him and turns me to His cross, His throne room...

The heart is so deceiving.

Today my little sister turns 20.

Wow.

And I couldn't even manage to say "Happy Birthday" to her.

Why?

Pride.

She hates me and I couldn't get past my own pride to just love on her as Christ would.

So what did I do all day.

Cry thinking about how jacked up my sister and my relationship is.

Cry some more.

Well, not the "real" cries. 

Just the kind of crying that makes you look like your down and keeps your eyes in a constant state of readiness for waterworks.

I love Jesus.

My life is out of control.
But I know He has a plan to restore all that the Locusts have eaten.

I need only obey.

Love you ladies,

♥CheChe