Imperfect. ♥

I will always be imperfect.

No matter how hard I try.

I will not let that be an excuse.

I will not let that fact keep me from choosing to obey.

I just pray that someday my family could believe in Jesus.

That someday they could realize the importance and urgency in not having Him.

I just pray that I can be a better witness of His love in my home.

I pray that He would use me to win over my family.

I pray for utter surrender, so that I can submit myself to Him as a slave.

Romans 1:1.

A SLAVE!

And to count it all joy.

I pray Lord for you to open my mind and heart to be self-less.

I need you so much Jesus.

When my family throws my flaws in my face I pray to rejoice in JESUS alone.

I pray to esteem them HIGHER than myself.

I need so much help you guys.

I need the holy spirit.

I need Jesus.

I can think of so many reasons WHY people kill themselves, run away from home, give their bodies away...

I can think of so many reasons.

I praise God that I am a woman who has FAITH.

So that when those reasons manifest themselves in my life I can cling to something REAL and something that truly strengthens me.

Because without Christ I would've gotten drunk today.
Starved myself thin today.

Barfed today.

Cut myself today.

Not come home tonight.

Cried in pity and vain.

Participated in dark and demonic stuff.

Thank you Lord for finding me and rescuing me and thank you for seeking me until I accepted you.

Thank you for never giving up on me when I easily could give up on my little sister and my family.
LORD JESUS help me to be more like you.

BREAK ME FATHER.

I need you so much.

Help me to pray for my enemies and to pray always.

Thanks for reading and please pray for me.

My home is a battleground and I really want to start living out a stronger faith in this household and watch the Lord move.

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