Of feeling sick and tired.
This year I probably excercised physically...
A whopping 3months worth of days.
MAYBE...
I have a gut.
It is quite official.
A gut becomes official when even when it is sucked in it still spills over your jeans.
If you can suck it in and it is nice and flat your not in need of worry ;).
I don't know why I feel like posting something so negative.
It may not even end up motivating me to get back to working out.
It may not even end up motivating me to get back to working out.
But I definitely know that I am to the point where I just pray for willpower.
I feel like crap to be honest.
I'm always tired.
Always drinking soda.
Always eating chips.
Always bloated...
I mean, I've just gotten worst these last few months with my new job.
I just feed and gorge and mindlessly hurt my own self.
Christ came to earth and suffered a violent death of hope.
He subjected himself to physical and spiritual obedience.
Fasting in the wilderness for 40 days and seeking the Father.
Having no home during His ministry and eating sparesly.
Even the disciples got so hungry they began to eat the wheat growing in fields.
But His goal wasn't to be thin.
His goal was to be a slave to nothing on earth but His father who sent Him.
By being both GOD and MAN he endured the same problems as us.
He had a human body, a body that could be both weak and strong.
And He ate unto GOD and GOD alone.
Nothing was eaten out of selfish gain...
Out of greed...
He was so perfect and truly excercised GODLINESS..
That is what I want.
I want to be a slave to no thing on earth.
Especially my body.
And to be honest I have become just that.
And to be honest I have become just that.
About 30 pounds worth of slavery...
But the number is only a small reflection of what I've put myself through.
I just want to eat and care for myself as if unto the LORD fully.
I just want to eat and care for myself as if unto the LORD fully.
FULLY as if unto the LORD.
God give me that joy of peace and that balance...
Aside from that thought I pray your enjoying this time of the year.
I also pray that your enjoying the functioning body GOD has given you and
doing all within your power to keep it running so that you can serve Him
and love Him to your fullest capacity while on earth dear friend!
HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS :)!
&
God BLESS...
6 HugsandBlessings:
Aww beautiful girl. I am familiar with your struggle. But you my friend are so beautiful. Regardless of how much weight you think you have gained. Christ loves you so much and thinks you are so beautiful. When I started working out for my own mental health, that is when it really clicked for me. I began running because I was depressed and it was the best medicine for me. I would pray. Talk to God, sometimes collapse on the ground after a long run and just cry. I took my frustration out on the cement and at the same time was able to connect deeper with God. Sometimes when I am working out, I say verses to myself and challenge myself, knowing that "I can do All things through christ who strengthen me". And the glory is to him :) Truly, those 5 mile runs are from him, not my strength :) I love you girl and hope you can find the motivation to feel better about yourself. I know it stinks to not feel good about yourself. But you are so beautiful and amazing!
I've been obsessing over my body this month too. The only way to kill the evil thoughts of yourself is to get drowned in the Word. Sigh.
I totally understand- and I think we all feel that way at times (especially during holidays!)But what's awesome is that God loves us NO MATTER HOW we are feeling about our bodies. He loves us and accepts us just as we are. So much that he became one of us - which is all part of the joy of Christmas, no?
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Love this! This is so inspiring. We have to give God FULL control over all of our desires. Such a good reminder!
Prayers as always!
Meg
CheChe I don't think you're being negative. You're being honest with yourself. GOD walked you step by step out of your eating disorder and HE has grace for you on days like this. Keep up the good work.
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