One of my broken heart memories... ♥

Years ago,
I was in my Junior year?
Or maybe it was softmore.
Yeah we'll go with that.
And I fell in love with one of my best guy friends.
Or as my friend Whitney would have said "DEEP LIKE, NEGRO."
(My nickname with my asian friends was NEGRO.
In exchange I called her asian and other cute things.)
But these were endearing terms, back then. I dnno. They could
still get away with it probably. Anyways, I digress.

I fell for him.
He was there for me when another guy COMPLETELY
shattered my heart.
What commenced is known as
" that time when your vulnerable with a guy about another guy
and you started to like the guy you were talking about the other
guy with for caring enough to listen and give feedback and help
you out in your emotional state of sadness..."

Well, that time came for me that year.

THEN.
Out of nowhere, like clockwork, he HATED ME.
Someone I truly considered a best friend.
And I mean it was the complete 360 we are ENEMIES
overnight now, type of deal.
He was a complete, excuse my french, jackbutt.
He made me feel so stupid and I just grew into such
an indifferent state of low self-esteem that I thought I wouldn't
ever escape it.

I was so hopeless.
Guy #1 treated me like a complete piece of garbage.
Now best guy friend, whom I had been more vulnerable with
than anyone in my complete life at that point, HATED ME.

It was just one brick of crap being thrown at me after another.

And then...

Well, life went on. But I've learned from Megan that
sometimes it is best to not write a paper on here... haha

I'll send the other half out tomorrow, it will help take up a day too.
Which is smart.
These girls I follow, I tell you they are amazing and filled with knowledge.


♥CheChe