Day #4: I forsake... ♥

Phillipians 3:7 But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ.

I like the King James Version.

I like the "counted'.

I like that despite all that I can boast in,

none of it compares to God.

That no matter how amazing I want to be or 

think I can be at times...
God sees none of me.

He only sees Himself in me.

He only sees my heart.

Of Course, my pride disagrees with that previous paragraph.

My pride wants to tell me I can believe in God and have confidence in myself.

Confidence in ME being powerful and capable and somebody worth being treated a certain way.

Someone worth having the things that she deserves because she has endured and been the victim.

Someone who has the right to speak whatever she believes not holding it to the law of Christ.

Someone who is better than you because she is a "good person"...And well, your not?

My pride.

My pride wants me to leave His presence.

To resist His love, forgiveness, mercy and hope.

Though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, 

I shall fear no evil.
For MY GOD is with me.

I count it all as lost father.

The fame, the importance.

The power the control.
The way that I saw myself.
The way that I thought I was.

The woman who could BOAST.

Lord, I forsake her for more of you.

For your cross.

For your shame.

For your blood.

I forsake her Lord.

♥cheche