Day #7...Speak His name ♥

Tonight only one verse came to mind.

It wasn't one that I had read in my quiet time.

It wasn't one that I had received from a brother or sister.

It was one that came after sharing Christ with strangers.

^{Acts 9:16} I will show him how much he must suffer for my name.

Paul was who this verse was directed to.

The man who went to write a majority of the New Testament.

I think you all know the story.
He loved GOD so much He persecuted and killed those who

professed Jesus as Lord.

He was against "THE WAY" and the disciples who believed Christ was the way.

So, of course, God being the God full of humor that He is would go on

to make Paul a believer and hardcore evangelist.

He planted churches, discipled and raised up the first generation of converts.

Moving on.

God has been doing a work and I have to say that I haven't

been rejoicing in it.

In fact I'm ashamed to say that I haven't even enjoyed it.

But He has been burdening my heart.

My soul has been heavy.

As soon as He gives me a face.

A name...

Nearny, Dani, Emily, Gabby...

And tells me to tell them His name.
How He loves them.

And instead of running over to them I get weighed down.

The battle begins.

All of it in my mind.

And I have the choice to obey the voice of GOD.

And suffer (very little, I mean I live in Orange County)

for HIS name.

Or wait it out and watch them walk away forever. 

Does anyone else have this same struggle?

Or burden?
To follow a group of girls out of Yogurtland into their cars

and tell them about Jesus?

Because I don't know if I can handle it.

I've been laughed at thus far, called a weirdo and politely told

I don't believe in Jesus.

The polite decline actually wasn't so bad.

But I am so selfish and self-focused and this burden just

doesn't add up. It doesn't match the woman.

Then I remember it is for His name and His name alone 

that I speak.

Just as Paul would go on to suffer continuously for the Gospel.
So must we go out and obey Him for His name and perhaps

be ridiculed, hated and despised all because of one name.

JESUS


♥cheche