With the old pains of the month.
The days where we know that EVE truly did bite that apple.
After laying on the couch and vegging out through the pain I checked
my email.
I saw a CHRISTIANMINGLE email...
I clicked it.
Curiosity over took me.
I clicked some more.
I made a profile.
I clicked some more.
took a personality test.
I clicked some more.
Wrote about how I believe God will send me a man.
Wrote about how I was simply on the site out of curiosity.
Thought to myself I am not this desperate.
Clicked some more.
Found an attractive black man in UK who loves the Lord.
Clicked some more.
Sent him a prewritten question.
I can't even remember the question I clicked.
He was quite lovely.
And then I clicked off and looked both ways.
There is nothing wrong with internet dating in my opinion.
But I felt like my parents left and I snuck online and looked at
something that wasn't for my eyes.
Not dirty.
Just...like a curious naughty little kid.
And the fact that the only guy I saw of interest was a black man in
UK was quite interesting.
My idea of what the man God has for me will look like is a cross
between Paul Walker and the guy who played BullsEye in Daredevil.
I mean, I have been attracted to black guys.
I'm not my own race racist or anything.
But blue eyes and dark hair and pale skin tended to be the status quo.
I digress.
The shocking thing was seeing all these active members of this "Christian"
online dating site.
I say "Christian" loosely.
All on Fire?
I doubt.
All believe in Christ.
Sure.
All believe in the Trinity.
Under speculation...
I guess I let curiosity and the desires of my heart distract me for a minute.
I didn't have a conclusion for this I just wanted to confess my recent
adventure of online web surfing.
Well... one more thing....
What if?
What if I met my husband online??
What if that was how GOD "brought" Him to me.
I guess I kinda was hoping to find Him in that little click-a-thon of mine.
I guess the secret is that I had fun getting hopped up on Christian singles
lookin to Mingle.
ha ha
Seriously though.
I would be lieing if I told you that I was closed off to the idea.
I just want things to look a certain way and I didn't want to admit that
I intentionally got click happy searching for my husband.
THERE!
I said it.
AND no I am not ashamed.
♥CheChe
