Lord... ♥

Lord I am confused.
Why do your people divide?
Why do your people talk down on one another...?
Are you not enough??
What is it that keeps mankind from being united under CHRIST?
You are the solid rock yet so many claim THEIR way is the REAL way...
Lord I am confused.
How can I have fellowship when I don't understand how your word
is being taught/believed...
Am I to just disregard them as if I am the judge?
Am I to just hide from them and seek other LIKE-MINDED individuals...?

Lord I don't want to take the position of JUDGE. The weight is more than I could ever bare.
I am just so confused as to who I am to trust and how I am to perceive your children.
I do not doubt anyone loves you any less. I do not doubt anyone believes in you more or less.
I just do not understand, the part I am to play, when I am confronted with the ideas of Christians
that I do not conform to.

Lord, this is something I have struggled with since last year. I am lead to believe that BELIEVING IN JESUS CHRIST, your son, Who died and rose again is what unites us. I am lead to believe that THE FATHER, SON and HOLY SPIRIT-the godhead 3in1- is what proves a believer is not under false doctrine. Yet, I feel that is not enough... I don't know Lord. I am just tired and in deep thought tonight.

I feel like mourning over the state of the CHURCH in today's society. Have we come so far from our purpose in you that we can not see how blind we are to our fallacies? I want to be united in you JESUS. But your children have made this so hard. I think of the CHURCH OF CHRIST and other Churches that are so focused on WORKS as opposed to FAITH that they have lost what following you was all about. Lord can you please tell me how to deal with this. I do not want to feel higher or lower than any other believer. I want to stand firm in your blood that was shed and your body that was broken. Just speak to me Lord. Tell me what to do because my heart hardens at this division. I want to have all believers united Lord. This is my vision for the church. This is my desire for this world. How are others to see your face when your BODY has become so detached in parts?? We each make up your body, so for a leg to tell another leg it is NOT being a CORRECT leg just makes no sense right??


i don't even know what I am talking about. lol I just want to know you deeper Lord. I want to be overflowing with your wisdom and to just be used by you. I want to love your children with the heart that you have when you love me. Thank you God. Thank you for my life.


I have learned a bit about CALVIN and his doctrine. Calvinism is something I am only vaguely familiar with but I know the basis is PREDESTINATION.  As far as I am aware Calvin has a bit of a different idea of how we are saved, but he does not deny the trinity/Resurrection/bible in any way so I do believe it is quite harmless. Oh I can't wait until we are all in heaven enjoying our FATHER and worshiping him with all of our soul!! What a day that will be. I feel like many of us will forget all of these different branches of CHRIST we created. WE will all finally be united in the natural way that GOD planned for us!

I received my bible from my GRANDMA today! It is amazing. It is a bible that is focused on Women and how God not only sees us but the role women have played in the bible and great studies. I am excited to get into it. :)

I am so terribly tired it is not even funny. I feel like sleeping in my clothes and riding my bike to school in them. lol I am excited for my friends bday dinner tomorrow after church :). Should be an amazing time with the brothers and sisters. I am so tired. I think I should go drop down and sleep somewhere.

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