just a few thoughts ♥

I've been meaning to update my blog aesthetic.

I'm going for something that brings the same feelings that the

pretty trees in the background bring but with a bit more

fluidity. Right now I don't feel solid with the theme of my blog.

It will suffice but it certainly does not stir me with inner

satisfaction.

JUST A THOUGHT.

Fall really was in the air today :). I felt as if I was waking up

on the first day of HIGH SCHOOL. Only I had 15 minutes to get

to work and desperately needed to brush my teeth. The air was

thick as if God added non-dairy creamer to it and stirred it in

immediately after the night roast had ended.  I find it

fascinating that I can go to sleep and leave one day completely

behind and wake up to a whole new day. New in perspective,

new in feeling, new in smell, new new new! I love the seasons

changing. I think it is God completely telling us that NOTHING

can ever stay the same. The world around us illustrates that so

plainly and boldly. AHHH.

I am excited for LIFE. I know this is sometihng that you are

all probably growing tired of hearing but I can not stress it

enough~! Maybe this is the joy of healing from my last

relationship and surrendering it to Christ. Maybe I am just way

to stocked up on serotonin and medically in need of a downer.

Who cares though right? Happiness is sometihng I want to get

used to feeling. Not something I want to get rid of or dissect.

I deserve to love LIFE so I am just going to sit here and enjoy

it!

You guys, I have a secret.

I have not done my reading assignment or homework for english!!!

AHHHHHH., It is the third week of school and I am already

self-sabotaging my English class?? why? why? why?

I feel like I am still the immature high school girl that loved

attending classes but didn't really care too much to put in the work

so therefore she ditched her classes in order

to keep her teachers from knowing just how lazy she was. Also,

the fact that I had terrible motivational skills and loved to socialize

more than I cared to do homework.

How can someone love to learn yet hate to work on things that they

don't WANT to work on? Better yet, things that they have not

chosen to work on. Perhaps my issue is just the result of a lack of

control, Hmm..

I have decided I am asking my mom for a birthday present! I have

not done this in a few years simply because I really like buying myself

gifts more than receiving them. Seriously, I'd rather put myself in debt.

My birthday Falls on September 20th and I have usually purchased 

everything I need (well, the past 4 years at least) But this year I have

my first extreme and needy REQUEST! I want to see the Phantom of

The Opera. At the Pantages THEATRE!!!! I am a theatre major. I am

in love with the stage. I may not be quite as educated as my theatre

peers but I know that I am at peace on that stage and I have the utmost

respect and admiration for actors who go beyond what they are called to do

in their craft. I pray to have that affect one day. 

My request would be steep. 125dollars steep to be exact. But it would

be such a memorable and amazing experience. I would have to find

a pretty vintage type princess inspired dress to wear to it. As well as

GLOVES. I am not getting my hopes up I just tend to dive in head first

when I really want something.

 I found out today I am receiving a new bible in the mail :)! 

Iced Tea and HIS WORD :) Perfect day...

Thanks to my amazing GRANDMA DARLING. *no her name is not darling but

she is my DARLING and she has been this since I can remember*

She really made my day at work so much brighter after revealing 

she had sent me one in the mail.

I am so excited to receive it! ahhh!! Best birthday so far right? lol

I know I can not be the only one who would be full of joy at the news!

speaking of news. I have a sister GETTING ENGAGED sooon ;) Not saying

anything more than that. he he

Alright. I am going to go now. Thank you for reading! i love you :)

♥