IT IS WEDNESDAY! CONGRATULATIONS! WE ARE OFFICIALLY HALF WAY THROUGH THE WORK WEEK :). YAY

School is proving to be very time consuming. I have three different subject on my mind and yesterday I just didn't feel inspired to write. I have not read my bible today and I actually feel so exhausted that I may take a nap before getting into the word. (Personally I do not believe in reading when I am sleepy because I like to absorb ANY material, unless it is a fiction novel which I will read until my eyes burn lol)
I Love School it is just so MUCH WORK this semester and so SOON. I usually have a nice balance between classes with lots of assignments and classes with more reading and tests. This semester is missing the latter and heavy with the assignments, writing, reading part. Nonetheless I will tackle each task and be the student that I desire to be and not the slacker that I desperately try to be.
Ugh, I just YAWNED aloud at the computer. How did I get this way? I'm either busy or at home tired. Nobody tells you that when you are young. Maybe they did and I just did not listen.
Death has been on my mind a lot. I am beginning to realize just how FRAGILE we truly are. The fact that we run this planet yet we are so easily destroyed is so ironic. How can anyone not see GOD in that picture? I just thank GOD that I know him now. Because Death really has no power over me the way it once did. That is the feeling that I have been having. The freedom from DEATH is starting to consume me. I now look at it as a door! A great big door in which I have the blessing to open one day and be in the presence of true BEAUTY. I get teary eyed just thinking of heaven. I can only imagine the heavenly realms and the idea of PRAISING GOD all day because I have no idea how to NOT praise him. The idea of not knowing PAIN! Leaving my earthly body! I am not in a happy suicidal mode though. Please do not mistake my joy of entering LIFE with the desire to end this one. It is the complete opposite. I seek to enjoy this life fully in the presence of GOD. I know he is with me. I can feel him as I cry with joy and DANCE with his spirit. Sometimes I just scream with pleasure at the thought of his grace and mercy :)! Yep, I'm a bit of a Jesus-Freak. We really are the best people though!
The ugly side of death is of course thinking of those who do not know him. Who do not worship him in TRUTH and SPIRIT. Who deny him. Who blaspheme his name! Who declare him as FAKE, PHONY, A PROJECTION of MANKIND (one of my favorites). I just want to see everyone saved. I want to see everyone with the joy of JESUS CHRIST. I meet so many people who are so focused of the LEGALITY of the BIBLE. They are like the PHARISEES who did not seek to have a personal RELATIONSHIP with Christ, but instead sought the word of GOD to condemn others and to throw the flaws of others in their face. I pray that we be a generation who seek HIS FACE and not just his word for our own selfish motives. I pray this specifically for me as well, lest I forget.

Why am I always crying? I have become such an emotional woman. Ha ha. I actually cry sometimes just looking at the lake at night. God is so woven into his creation that I cannot even handle it sometimes. You guys I am not complaining! This is just so far from the CHE I knew for so many years.

I guess I am just in LOVE with LIFE. ♥

I did something crazy the other night. I wrote a letter to my beloved future husband. After Danica revealed she had done this the seed had definitely been planted. But I was unwilling to let it take root. I would think about it but I just did not have the heart. So my first letter is complete and to the right on my page if you wish to read. It is more just to get the thoughts out. I used to be so against marriage!? God is definitely working something great in me. I am becoming unrecognizable by HIM alone. That is something I pray for constantly so to see it begin to unfold it really just shows me how close he is to those who call on his name :).

That is it for me. I love you all! Praise God for another day!


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