time for bed.. and a quick post

I'm actually really sleepy.

  believe it or not. haha yes I am aware it is 2:11 am. I really have horrible sleeping patterns and it's probably

   going to lead to premature aging but I'm not really too concerned.

           Today around 3 I have a "date" with a girlfriend I actually met in the religious FICTION section of my favorite BOOKSTORE. God is so faithful. I pray for close christian friends to enter my life REGULARLY and I seem to find them around the cor in the most random places. I actually eavesdropped on her speaking to another girl and decided to chime in about her TJMAX statement. We both agreed TJMAX is amazing and yes it was friendship at first sight.

          WE or I guess i should say, I began to let her in on my home church CALVARY CHAPEL COSTA MESA and the amazing services they have. And also about the (then) current trial of being in the process of getting over my ex and how FRANCINE RIVERS REDEEMING LOVE and books in general were a great distraction. So we exchanged numbers and have since hung out once.  We now are scheduled to hang out tomorrow(today) at a shopping mall and I am looking forward to it because I love hanging out with other believers who aren't LUKEWARM in their faith but really seeking to stay in the presence of god. There is a strength and something very raw about the relationships I form with believers that excites me. Maybe its the hope that we can share together as we discuss our lives and share pain. Whatever it is I don't think I can ever have TOO much of it :).

                 But to me this is what it should be like as believers. Fellowship is one of our strongest tools

                 and it helps us to stay *(DARE I SAY)* accountable without the struggle. When we 

                 engage in CHRIST centered relationships we are plugging in and able to enjoy company

                without the sacrifice of leaving GOD out of the ENTIRE picture, as it is in the world. Too

                 many of us are not engaging and if you have an excuse well pray for deliverance and for 

                   those barriers to be pushed aside because nothing is too LARGE for our GOD. This I 

                   know and BELIEVE :).

I also have another get together on FRIDAY. A friends birthday is coming up and MAMBA lessons are in store<3 I look forward to updating you guys on how that one goes!

and saturday I have a reunion meet with a good friend from highschool! she got me on this blog sight actually. haha. 

ahh, i can remember thinking I would never have a full life and now my life is full beyond my hopes! lord willing I pray to have all he desires to give me each and every day and stay content!

alright time for bed. 

I'm so happy with how things are.

Of course, I miss at times the comfort that comes from a relationship with a man,

but I am so taken aback by how rewarding God is and how he ministers to us when we are in 

his will and not living according to our own.

A pic from HARVEST on friday night!!! lives being changed :)!!