a bit of an update :)

The meet up with _____ proved to be quite insightful. While the conversation flowed comfortably I was able to see just how far I have come. As well as how far _____ has come. I looked at their phone out of impulse because they had gotten a new one. It's a blackberry which _____ always despised. I immediately saw the image of a woman on the front of it. It was pretty irritating. I know, I know but I am HUMAN. I didn't feel so much jealousy as I felt sadness. _____ has moved on so quickly. Here I am doing my best to put GOD first and they have a girl plastered on the front of their phone already. That is pretty funny. I was reassured in my choice of obedience. I was also reassured in my promise from GOD. A man with a heart of the LORD will bear fruit. He will ooze the love of CHRIST he has in all things he does.  Quite frankly the fact that he had a young woman's picture on his phone shows that he is either desperate for a new relationship or that his heart isn't ROOTED in his faith. It was also very unattractive. I know, quite the judging statement there BUT LET'S just keep it real. (She is also an atheist.) The good thing is I was able to pray for _____ and just ask for his heart to be filled with a love of CHRIST. _____ asked me if I had met any guys and I wanted so BADLY to say YES!! They have strong faith and walks with Christ too!!  (oh the lovely and selfish flesh) Instead I smiled and said NO. There was really no need for the question but I guess he wanted to feel like maybe he wasn't alone in his actions. Ahh. I felt so free but at the same time I realized this is not someone I am close to anymore. There is a gap or barrier that is still there for me. I need GOD's healing and to just see his children more through his eyes than mine own. I am no better than _____ but I found myself looking a bit down on him as he talked about his temptations and how he has been in the WORLD. That isn't my place. It isn't OUR place. WE are to be edifying, teaching, correcting and rebuking one another when necessary but OUT of love. What is anything without LOVE. 

Thank you Jesus for teaching me and for constantly growing me. I am always going to be a child when I look to you. Thankfully you will always be the PERFECT father. Always with me, protecting me and guiding me.

My lunch date with the Girls went AMAZING! WE laughed and had great fellowship and decided to start meeting Fridays for bible study :)!!! This was one of my recent prayers. So I was extremely overjoyed to hear they were having QUIET TIMES with one another on a weekly basis and asked me to join. God is so faithful. As my girl BECKY put it so nicely when I told her "HE PUT THAT DESIRE IN YOUR HEART AND THEN YOU GAVE IT BACK TO HIM AND THEN HE ANSWERED!! HE IS SO GOOD!!"  I love that girl :). So today has definitely been a richly blessed day.

I pray GOD answers all your prayers and that his DESIRES become YOUR desires. That sounds amazing doesn't it??

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